My Malaysia ;)

Selamat Ulang tahun kemerdekaan, Malaysia.

moga saya akan jadi independent juga :)

*xoxo*

Happy 20th Birthday, Along!

SPM 2006.

the promises.

STAM 2007

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my dear Annis Athirah Ahmad Tarmidzi;

the very best friend + the most lovable sister,

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"when i was crying to death,

i wished you were here,

when i was laughing like hell,

i wished you were here,

when i was feeling like life is so unfair,

i wished you were here.

whatever it is,

i really really wish you are here.

because life is so incomplete without you here"

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Happy 2oth birthday, lovey.

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you'd have no idea how much i miss you.

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Love you always. *hugs*

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*we've known each other for almost 7 years.

*it's been 2 years since we last met.

*she's currently doing her bachelor degree in Arabic Language (Jordan).

*she won't come back till the graduation day and that's horrible enough for me.

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... oh, so many things to write on,

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but one thing for sure,

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apart from my family, my 'F.2.5.d', and my good buddies,

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she's another piece of me.

i fell in love again. and then i forgot. again.

what the hell is this post about? bella, don't you have any other 'educated' or even 'civilised' topics to post on? daa~

yea frankly speaking i fell in love again. again, and again. there's nothing wrong with it, after all. just couldn't help myself from this human nature. ecece. life is good, btw.

but it just keeps happening. last month, last week, yesterday, tomorrow, next week.

senangnye kau jatuh cinta wehhhhh.

sesenang itu lah kau lupe cinta.

cinta itu monyet, after all.

that's totally right. it's a freakish fact which i won't ever deny. we easily fall in love.

same thing goes in forgetting it.

well, i happened to fall for this guy, last thursday. believe me, he's damn cute. hmm, too much exaggerate, i guess. coz i was just glimpsing at him. haha. so, he's QUITE cute lah. he posses a pair of smiley eyes like Hongki dongsaeng which is cute enough for me.

till few hours ago, i still dreamt of him.

i was on my way back from wangsa maju with Abil. while taking seat inside LRT wangsa maju, i saw this girl. "hmm, tak kenal. keluar dgn pakwe la tu". i mumbled since i saw a guy besides her. then i looked at the guy. hmm, quite a familiar one. what??? omg.

i texted Abil who sat next to me: "weh ni la bdk yg aku suke tu wehh. dgn gf dia kotttttt".

Abil smiled. did she? no, she laughed at me. urgh.

then dgn tak malu nye i loudly said: owhhh, heartbroken nye! haha.

then i totally forgot.

tetttttt.

tak apa lah,
cinta datang dan pergi kan?
senyum saja sudaa.

;)

happy fasting semua orang! ;)

my most 'precious' experience ever.

some pieces from McLead 2009

good day, everyone.

there's actually a LOT to be told but this one is the most 'interesting' moment i ever had in my lifetime. for God's sake, yeah it is.

before i start telling on that, or even cursing on that, let me begin with reporting my current activities. my previous weekend was spent in Port Dickson, for MRC leadership training (Mclead). to be frank, i was not actually enjoying the whole event. it was, so-so lah. people there were eccentric! haha. tettt. no comment.
and i hibernated for 2 days after that.

what's next? i'll be attending a meeting on behalf of Mdm Norbani tonight at ive-no-idea-where mahallah Sumayyah. it'll be regarding the inter-mahallah cultural week which will be held on October.
because of that, i can't go watching the best friend, Sakinah, performing theatre. owh, it's horrible enough okayy. Do your best, lovey. im always with u!

apart from those, there'll be another leadership training this saturday. but this one is only for the representatives of Mahallah Asiah. am really looking forward to that!

kyahh~ going back to the main highlight, i am so inspired to share this one with you, readers.
i am now working with two WEIRDOS. one is a complete weirdo whom i often refer to as someone from outside this planet.

the climax began about 2 weeks ago, which took place at the library.
there were 3 of us, sitting together to discuss on the research paper.
one thing for sure, i won't ever say that i was guilty. i wasn't. at all.
i won't even say that i am that perfect. i was just trying to be one.
while i was asking question or actually feeding information to one of them, she seemed clueless and then said that she was fed up and even claimed that she is 'panas baran', and all of sudden left us just like that. what the hell?! where's your responsibility, loser??

i seriously was shocked but just remained silent and tried to be calm. then i looked at the other one, and surprisingly she was weeping. again, what the hell?!
she then said sambil teresak-esak: "saye boleh faham perasaan dia..isk..isk..".
i cursed a lot kottt.
but believe me, it wasn't my fault at all.
i was just wondering how come these weirdos bleh exist kat UIA ni?
tak professional langsung!
afraid of losing my humanity, i talked to my mom via phone and due to that i successfully faced everything with complete calm. duh!~

tak habis lagi okay.

when i reached my room, i checked those weirdos' works out. and again, what the hell?!
they were rubbish! yeah, all rubbish!

felt like looking for the rector of IIUM to tell him how surprised i am, getting to know these two weirdos + losers in this garden of knowledge and virtue.

oh yea, forgot about this one.

before the tragic discussion took place, i already had one with one of them.
after abot half an hour, she asked me; "eh, tajuk kite homosexuality ye? ingatkan HOMESEXUALITY.." wtf? ape ingat seks di rumah ye?
confirm awak ni dari planet lain. tett.

now im re-doing everything from the very beginning. tak sanggup nak masukkan RUBBISH dlm my assignment. aiyo~

the lesson is, do make sure that your groupmates are from this planet.
otherwise, you'll tak tido malam mcm saye.

anyway, sangat2 bersyukur all my good friends are normal. u guys memg rock!

jgn fed up dan panas baran please ;D

full stop.

the one-shot chronicle of current life.

first of all, Happy Friendship Day to all!
the picture was intentionally put to show that i am extremely happy with my current exhausting plus hectic life now ;) (ignore those chubby cheeks. this pic was captured 2 weeks before and i've lost 4 kg now.) *giggle*

owh, it has been such a LONG time since i last wrote here.

if i didnt manage to do works in library and got to access internet here, i would never know that i do have a blog which is already full of dusts as well as rotten tempe ;).

since i didnt get free time to update all events separately and am sure i'll never get to have this moment again in the future, so i think it would be good to sum them up in just one-shot post.

i've been getting stuck in lots of things since the very first day of this semester.

while others were meeting the loveys, i was at room, typing the journal entries for ASEAN Logics Conference 2009 a.k.a ALC.

Overall, i can say this is my first experience of being committed to such a LOT of things.

every week, there'll be a departmental meeting of ALC. well i can say that being the staffs of the department of Publication and Documentation is quite tough, since we're working with papers. proofreading, typing, editing, composing, etc, are some of the main tasks for each one of us. there are two people quitted from this department so far. no need to question. that is why i am happy and glad for still being able to work happily for ALC generally, and under this department specifically. (bekerja dengan riang ye, semua orang. hehe.)

next, instead of taking Leadership Management for CCAC subject this semester, i decided to take Presentation Skills and Critical Thinking class. it sounded 'nice' at the first place, but after attending the first class and discovering that there'll be loads of speeches plus presentations to be done, i started to blink and think and blink again. *gulp*. anyway, it is not a big problem for me since i personally love responsibilities plus tasks plus whatever they are called, because from them i learn to value the preciousness of life. Life is all about chances. if i don't grab all those opportunities, i'll surely regret then.

other than these, my first class of Halaqah had taken place yesterday. belive me, they were really2 fantastic! lovin' it ;). they were nice and seemed to happily accept me as their facilitator. Alhamdulillah, everything went well as it was supposed to. dearies, im so glad to know all of you and hoping to have such an amazing moments with u!

not only that, i've just been appointed to be the member of Mahallah Representative Club (MRC) for this session. Thank God i passed the tough interview with the respective Principal ;). so for that, i'll be attending a 3-days training at Port Dickson next week. happily looking forward to it. *grin* and im currently working for the Inter-Mahallah Cultural and Debate week. (promote skit. tett.) well, though i didnt get the bureau i wished to, i am satisfied enough with the position i received. Culture and Art isn't that bad. Plus, the fellow in charge for my bureau is seriously amazing. love knowing u, Mdm Norbani! ;)

not to be forgotten is the Karate class which i've decided to join since last year. Alhamdulillah though having lots of things to do, i still manage to attend the training every Sunday morning. credit to Salwan for being supportive! ;)

apart from these extra activities, i am still facing same obstacles as other students. FYI, i managed to take 3 IRK subjects; Fiqh, Sciences of Hadith and Islamic Ethics, and only 2 core subjects; Grammatical Analysis and History of the English Language, to have such a so-called good CGPA. because i used to think that those religious-based subjects would help, i was extremely shocked when getting to know that all lecturers for those subjects were 'only-God-knows' how. don't wanna talk about them here. but the point is that i am actually putting myself in such a challenging ang tough classes. O Allah, im hoping to obtain strength for the whole semester. Ameen.

for now, im having 3 term papers to be submitted on the same time and many other tasks to be completed in quick.

however, i still have some dates to go with the loveys; lunch with Lynda and Sarah at Egg House this coming Monday, as well as movie time with Abil at klcc this Wednesday. ahh, can't wait to watch Sandra Bullock in 'Proposal'. still planning to meet a good friend on next two week. (hoping to give good news to u, hanafi. hehe.) and yea, i had spent such a fantastic eve with the good friends; Ziera, Nana and Dedo at Pavilion yesterday. Muffin and Nadea didnt manage to come along. it was hell, seronok! so many dramatic things happened, even from the very beginning. do the task of narrating those events, Ziera ;). penat sudahhhh. huhu.

btw, frankly speaking that though i am happily living my current life, i still have some problems, or i can say, unexpected plus unwanted happenings. currently having problems in dealing with some groupmates, but Mak and Ayah had helped in maintaining my humanity. thanks a lot to thos VVIPs. im not in the mood of telling what is actually happening among us. i just can't stand with some people, who are not professional in doing works. people say im a perfectionist and i don't think there's something wrong with it. i do know that i am. i am too systematic and organized because i hate to have such petty problems in the future. i plan a lot because im too afraid of failing to accomplish all those tasks, and afraid of this word; REGRET.

not only that, another jerk who exists in this world had pissed me off lately. get a life, LOSER! daaa!~

kyahhh~ (stratching...) enough for now or i'll start posting on IIUM library as a super giant refrigerator.

wishing to have chance to update more later.

for now, let's start working with GUSTO!

love, love, and love from me ;)