By the time i'm writing this, you are soundly sleeping with your babah. Today is 30/4/2017, 3 Sha'ban 1438Hijriah, and you are 3y3m old.
Cant believe I just started writing to you when you are already 3 years old. I should have started earlier- cause I have so much things to say to you. Hmm ☹️
Also at this moment, it's almost 5 years of my marriage with your babah. 3 years of having you have been wonderful, blissful, despite the hardship me and your babah have been facing since few years back. - im not gonna to tell you what problem it is, cause it doesnt concern you, and you shouldnt be worried about this.
Anyway back to the reason Im writing this, is to tell you how much you mean to me. Eventhough you are not growing up as well as other kids, we believe it will pass soon. This is a test from Allah. The Almighty is testing our patience in educating you, shaping you to become a good Muslim. This year especially has not been easy. Therapist, paed and psychologist have suspected that you have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) which explains why you are unable to focus, easy to get mad, and also one of the reasons why you are still unable to speak. At this moment you still utter your own language. Only one-word meaningful words. However we dont lose hope on you. Mommy wont lose hope on you. Therapist also said that this is not permanent. ADD can be cured, improved. Hence we've been sending you to therapies every week. But we dont expect much from you cause whatever condition you are in, we will always accept and love you as much as you deserve! And Im grateful, blessed enough that you rarely sick, and despite of your speech delay, you still understand what we ask you to do. Most importantly, I can see love in your eyes. You love mommy, you love babah kan? :)
Whatever happens, and will happen later, please know that mommy loves you so much. Nothing can replace you dear. Nothing is more valuable than you. Im sorry for any kekurangang yg mommy ada as a mom. Im not a perfect mom, i admit it. I dont cook well, i dont clean up well. But Im always trying my best to provide you the best. No matter how hard life would be, I will never let you be hungry or wear dirty clothes. You deserve the best, because you are the best, the greatest gift from Allah. Alhamdulillah wa syukr lillah.
My hopes for you sayang, not to be a great person with high-pay job, title and so on. I only hope that you will be a soleh person, a good Muslim so we can live together in Jannah happily. This life is only temporary, akhirat is permanent. Whoever you are in the world, it's nothing if you dont do well for the Hereafter.
Remember sayang, orang paling berjaya adalah yang menjaga solatnya. If you're sad, scared, happy, lost, down, and so on, talk to Allah. He will hear you, listen to you.
I love you Ahmad Danish Iman. And will always love you. XX
-Mommy-
Yesterday 29/4/17.
We were sending Atok to KLIA.
He had a short work trip here in KL.
1/4/2017 - sending mommy to work. Thank you Danish for always patiently accompanying Babah to send and fetch me up from work!
12/4/17 - our first movie together. You love Smurfs so muchhh.
24/4/17 - going to rumah Ibu. It was a public holiday - pertabalan Sultan Kelantan ad YDP Agong, also Isra' Mikraj.
20/4/2017 - fetching you up from playschool.
27/4/17 - sending mommy to work.
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