Xpress Music.

exam weeks had turned my life from the normal one to the one possessed by a 'kaki study' ;p

the favorite pastimes; novel-ing, gymming, jogging, basketball-ing, shopping, facebook-ing, blogging, etc, had been replaced by studying n cramming.

credit to the people in charge of the exam schedule that i got some time(sehari je pun); being entertained, amused, fascinated, mesmerized, and amazed ;)

--> currently holding a fascination to 'Sorry Sorry' performance by Super Junior.
Super duper amazing! =)

Sorry Sorry performance; 22.03.09, SBS Inkigayo.
Super Junior: the super duper adorable sweethearts ;)

[Kangin, Kyuhyun, Heechul, Sungmin, Yesung, Siwon,
Kibum, Hankyung, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Leeteuk, Ryeowook, Shindong]

these are my boyfriends in reality. in reality yea, everyone ;p
Ziera, the SNSD-10th-member buddy had once said:
"Guys around u are all in fantasy, Bella".
Ha Ha Ha. lolz ;)

i also got to put myself in music mode. see you tomorrow, Israr's ;).

current [most-played]s:
1) Sorry Sorry -Super Junior
2) Song For You-SS501
3) Again -Jewelry
4) Complete -So Nyeo Shi Dae (SNSD)
5) Full of Happiness -Super Junior
6) Call My Name -183 Club ft 7 Flowers
7) Last Farewell -Big Bang
8) Doushite -Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK)
9) Find -SS501
10) Gyeorheun -Choi Jung Chul ft Ga In

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when im in melancholic mood, i'd turn these songs on:
1) Complete -SNSD
2) Gyeorheun -Choi Jung Chul ft Ga In
3) Endless Story -Yuna Ito
4) Call My Name -183 Club ft 7 Flowers
5) Doushite -DBSK
6) Cling -Ft. Island
7) Lovesick -Ft. Island
8) Persona -Kangta
9) Sayonara Daisuki Na Hito -Kiroro
10) Because I'm a Girl -Kiss
11) The Day You Went Away -M2M
12) Planeterium -Ai Otsuka
13) Konayuki -Remioramen
14) Tears -SNSD
15) Find -SS501
16) Can You Hear Me -TaeYeon SNSD
17) What If -TaeYeon SNSD
18) Dear Mom -SNSD
etc.

Super happy + in high-spirit mood:
1) Amigo -ShiNee
2) Dejavu -SS501
3) Gee -SNSD
4) Let's Talk About Love -SNSD
5) Fly -Hillary Duff (most-inspired one too)
6) Super Star -Jewelry
7) Again -Jewelry
8) Last Farewell -Big Bang
9) Partner for Life -SG Wannabe
10) Let's Go On A Trip -SM Town
11) Tinkerbell -SNSD
12) Into the New World -SNSD
13) Tri-Angle -DBSK ft BoA ft Trax
14) Lithium -Evanescence
15) Xin Wo -Fahreinheit ft S.H.E.
16) Full of Happiness -Super Junior
etc.

p/s: these are all korean, japanese, english and mandarin songs.

(i am a universal listener. i listen to any songs; regardless of languages, messages, genres, etc. nway, my most
preferred are korean, mandarin, and japanese)

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i was asked by a blog follower, the wonderful lady cik Sara:

"kamoo mmg peminat lagu2 yg bukan berbahasa melayu kah?"

well i guess there's something interesting to be shared with.
it may be unnecessary, but i do want to ;)

here, some may think that typical Bachelor of English (BENL) students like me are always trying to westernize themselves; feeling ashamed of our native's.
for that purpose, they put such a hard effort in getting away from the lifestyle which has been occasionally described as old-fashioned, lame, etc.
undoubtedly, some people are just stereotyping BENL students but i can't deny that there is a number of BENL students yang macam tu.

so, "eeuuww, i tak suke la lagu melayu. tak de class langsung"
im not overstating or even making up story.
i speak on my own experience. lawak kan? ashamed of malay songs tapi sendiri cakap rojak english. owh, shame on that person then.

in my case, it's not that malay songs takde class ke ape. i don't really like Malay songs because they are typically about love, love, and love. saye bukanlah anti-love but they are often being composed and sung in ways that are not sensible. Indonesian's are somehow much better.

so i prefer to the others since undeniably they are expressed in more mature and most importanly, not gross and mushy ways ;p

Besides, the other reasonable reason for my most-preferred options that are Korean, Mandarin, Japanese, and English, is that i am currently hardly learning those languages for the sake of having wider job scope in the future.
itu lah sebabnye, semua orang.
i am malay and will always be a malay after all. i know. i never forgot and will never ever forget ;)

p/s: the only malay song i like is Kaer's Izinkan Ku Pergi. (...or kau pergi? huhu)
and the only indonesian song im attracted to is Ungu's Tercipta Untukku (...or untukmu? correct me for any wrongs yea)
and among these, i love nasyid too. but 'outdated' describes me the best ;p

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to cik Sara: owh sangat panjang jawapan saye kan?
well, i love babbling after all! ;p xoxo~

mushy but im lovin' it ;p

My Little Princess- DBSK.

How can I forget all the special memories of you?
I still remember, my little princess.

What I'm feeling must be love.
It's hard to hide it, when a smile appears on my face.
I start to miss you, before the day even ends.
What should I do? My heart is fallen ill.

You won't see laziness in me anymore
I only want to show you my best.

I'm going to fly high up into the sky and tell the world that I love you.
Your aura last deep into the night, girl.
I'll become a star watching over you. You're my love.

"Lets split up, and be happy."
Let us never to say those words to each other.
Stay by my side, just as you are now.
I know that I'm lacking, but I hope you understand.

Anticipate a more mature me.
I want to become the man that was made for you.

Please give me permission to stay in you heart forever.
If you feel the same way I do, there'll be no pain.
Now I will protect you.

For you.

Do you know how much I love you?
Please stay by my side.

My little princess,
I'm going to show you the love I've kept hidden until now.
Forever, with an unchanging heart, girl.
I'm going to love you more than myself.

You're my love.
I promise you.


*touched* ;)

*i dont really like the song, but damn love the lyric. i prefer SS501's My Girl as my everynight's lullaby.

....

"doushite? kimi wa suki ni natte shimattan darou?"

tagged by an acquaintance ;)

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?

> yeah. someone used to.

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What is wrong with you right now?

> often think of unnecessary thingummies. (kucing kat luar tu dah makan ke eh?)

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When is the longest crush you have had?

> this year! the dull 3 months had just ended. ah, thank God ;)

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What will you be doing tomorrow?

> cramming on 'Intro to Mass Comm'.
> watching Super Junior's Sorry Sorry performance! ;p

> worrying about the exam results ;(
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Bet you're missing someone now?

> definitely am. (n hoping that he's feeling the same way too)

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Have you ever liked someone older than you?

> definitely! coz i am more attracted to the elders. lolz.

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Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

> depends.

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Does it take a lot to make you cry?

> nope. i cry thattt easily. (shed tears while watching the already-watched-for-thousand-times korean MV *see at the end of this post*)
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Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call/text, but never do?

> owhhh. surely yes! (same thing goes if i don't get replied)

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In the past weeks, have you cried?

> yeah. easily get affected by petty thingy.

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Rent a movie or go to movies?

> i'l only go to movies with those im comfortable with, or else, i prefer to watch alone at room.

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Are you a jealous person?

> a bit lah. (a lot perhaps. again, i am affected at ease)

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Are you good at hiding your feelings?

> i guess so. only me know what is deep inside the soul. i don't really like telling ppl what i feel unless i really really do want to. (usually to the close ones only)
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who are you in next 7 years?
> a loyal housewife? ;) (the ultimate ambition)
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What is the thing about guy that you are attracted to the most?
> the way he speaks; which can depict his intelligence. a guy with intelligence is my most-preferred ;)
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xoxo!

this MV is damn melancholic! it had once been described as the 'Korean saddest MV'.

p/s: if i find a guy like the one in this MV, i'll surely marry him! ;p

Literary Genres II: Drama

finally, i've seated for Drama paper!
what a relief~

but it was terribly hard! especially the section B's questions.
damn. i totally forgot about the anti-Christianity in Christopher Marlowe's Doctor Faustus.
"Do you agree Doctor Faustus is anti-Christianity? Give examples from the play."

but no more option. waaaaahh.

dah lah nearly tulis Doctor Faustus by Mouliere!
Im getting old already. sigh.

plus, the exam hall was extremely cold
that i went to ladies after an hour. huh.

and yea, i started the last essay 15 minutes before the exam was over.
"time's up.stop writing"
huh??? eh. takde org nmpak. continued writing. ;P

went back and had dinner with kak yati, the roomate.
laughed a LOT.
we both will be taking Mass Communication this friday.
then we managed to study together lah tonight.
yay! ade kwn study. so saye tak kan bermalas2 ;)

i went out room for a while and saw this;

basically this is what we refer to as "Cute Cruelty".

the black one is Halim while the other is Hafsah ;)
mereka lah teman di kala bosannn~
owh, there are another two named Ahmad Wajdi and William Muir.
lame tak nampak. dah berhijrah kot. ;(

okayyy. happy study!
xoxo.

a catastrophe.

while the angel side of me said: Bella, dont u ever start pressing the keyboard, and start reading "Mass Media in Peninsular Malaysia" now!,
the evil side of me harmoniously sang Jewel's "Intuition"; follow your heart, your intuition, it will lead you in the right direction...
huh and huh and huh. i know i should have started do some revisions, and i know i've promised not to write any new posts, but, but, i do, do, and do want to. blink2 ;)
so here ppl, i just wanna share a story. not a fun one, but a LAME one. yeah, so lame and pathetic.
last night, a guy texted me. basically, he was my primary schoolmate. look at the word, PRIMARY. so it's been such a long, long, looooong time since we met. (even i, have forgotten his face.)

H: salam. awak nabila hanis kan?
the kind-hearted me: ye la. bukan ko ke yg dpt no aku dlu?
H: hehe. ingat lagi ye ko kat aku.
the patient me: aku muda lagi kott. memory masih kuat.
H: ko kat uia kan...

bla, bla, bla,...

H: ko cuti bile?
the generous me: 21hb ni.
H: bleh la jumpe.

(fine. he used to be my schoolmate kan. so why not.)

the lovely me: tgok la kalau aku ade kat umah time tu.

bla, bla, bla...

H: bleh send gmbar ko kat aku x?
the starting-to-get-pissed me: ha? x perlu lah~
H: ala, bleh la. nanti aku send gmbar aku plak.

(conversation stopped. coz i was no longer interested nor willing to spend my precious time having a conversation with such a "duh!" guy)

the annoyed me's soliloquy: hey, i didn't even want yours, okkayy. WTF??? (it's so so hard to hear this word from my mouth. it'll only be produced when i really really really am pissed off.)

well, u might think it was common la kan. kawan2 mintak gambar, apsal ko perasan lebih plak?

i have my reasons, anyway. he wasn't a close buddy. i dont even remember much about him. but then, asking for meeting up? wanting a picture?, what are these all about?
and then when i stopped texting him, he also didn't give any reply. what a shame. if you do want a picture for the sake of wanting to see the latest old friend, at least it should be any reasonable statements lah kan? so, what's on earth was it? u can still call me perasan if u want. i won't mind.

nway, it has happened for so many times. guys asking for pictures, nak berkenalan katanye.
maybe that is their way of making new friends. but sorry, if you are intending to apply it to me, be ready for receiving my ultimate rejection.
coz it is definitely not my wayyy of getting to know new friends.
when i asked: "buat pe nk tgok gmbar? kwn je kan?
common answer by those desperate ones: "ala, saje saje je".

i hate this. this. and this. (opps. i should have stressed on the word 'hate' lah.)
my ex-lecturer had once said: "Never ever do something without purpose!" bear that in mind, people. *credit to madam Wan Samiah Adibah.
pictures are unnecessarily needed for the purpose of developing new friends.
if you do so, then i'll be so pleased and glad to call you "DESPERATE", or if isn't sound good enough, "DREARY" then.
btw, i've tried for once, sending a picture which wasn't mine (basically the one which wasn't look good la kan)
then, org yang desperate itu terus senyap. (even after i sent few messages) see? see? and see?
because i wasn't as lawa nor cantik as he thought, he wasn't interested anymore. duhh!

yeah, undeniably, this is life. the phrase "don't judge a book by its cover" will for ever remain a phrase.
ironically, people do judge a 'book' by its 'cover'. tak cantik, tak mau lah. eh yang ni cantik kottt, nak berkenalan lah! (crazily exciting).

what-everr!~
what's the only value in friendship? > H-O-N-E-S-T-Y. spell it out loud so it'll remain in your memory for ever. full stop.

"people are people and will for ever remain people".

(eh cik bella, ape yg anda merepek ni ha? alahhhh, nak jugak produce philosophical phrase! haha. layannn~ terima kasih daun keladi)

before i rest my case, (owh, missing the kegemilangan era as school debater!) let me apologise for any wrong thoughts, overly-stated perspections, improper choice of words, and what-so-ever lah ye.
buku Mass Comm dah memanggil2: "woi bacelah aku. aku masuk exam paper kottt".

fine. gotta stop now. bye bye. love, love, and much love from me ;)

Final examination~

Final examination has officially started last two days. i've had my Tilawah test on 2nd April. it was not bad lah since i just had to recite one ayah. i guess the examiners had already got exhausted. ye lah, we were about thousands kottt. never mind then. they got loads of pahala for listening to quranic recitation kan ;).

a day after that, i had my Bahasa Melayu Komunikasi untuk Kerjaya final exam. ok lah. the questions weren't so hard nor so easy. so-so lah. but i hate it hat it was so cold there till i felt like falling asleep (already did!). i fought my best to stay awake. my handwriting? no comment lah. even the one which is under normal condition resembles doctor's, ape lagi yg under half-asleep condition nih? so basically, my handwriting's size: 12++, font: cacing kerawitttt. oh yea, i'll be showing you my half-asleep notes later. they are damn funny and WTH! haha.

what come next?

8th: Literary Genres II: Drama, (10 plays on the go)

10th: Introduction to Mass Communication, (i still hv no idea why i should take this course. duh!)

14th: Sciences of Qur'an, (love. love. love.)

17th: English Phonetics and Phonology. (cinta jugak! gotta do my very very very best)

as a pre-conclusion, i haven't ready for the coming papers; especially drama and mass comm. so for the sake of getting good grades, no more blogging, and too much time spent on Friendster-ing, Facebook-ing. and also Gymming. owhhhh. susahnye hidup! fine. gotta fight till the end.

conclusion: end this post asap, and start reading Tartuffe. bye!

"a person with no will to fight will never be happy".

so everyone, Good Luck for the holy Finals!

Love, love, and love from me.

Happy 20th Birthday, the forever friend of mine!

I don't have to worry anymore,
cause you will be by my side when I cry
You always smile at me
I am blessed because you always shine before me
Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you, thank you Best Friend

These plenty happiness that I felt at this moment
All the friends that I have here, you're the best present
I am blessed because you always be by our side
Surely things that I have accomplished here,
those things too give me strength

Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
All of your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

Always always always my Best Friend

Happy 20th Birthday, darling~
i wish you EVERYTHING good for your super amazing life.
thanks a lot for all the words, smiles and hugs that never fail to cheer my days up!
i love you damn so much!
in the time of troubles, you know where to find me right?
coz i'll always be there for you ;)
(i'm your PA after all! =P)

Dear Allah, thanks a LOT for giving me such a great and amazing life by sending
Nur Sakinah bt Mohd Khir Johari to serve me as a great and amazing buddy ;)

p/s: i PURPOSELY did not wish her birthday on time.
to let her think that she's not in my mind at the first place.
to let her feel sorrow for not receiving any wishes from the one she meets EVERYday.
wahahaha~
but babe, you know I LOVE YOU, xoxo ;)

the amazing call!

i was sleeping when my phone suddenly rang. owh, it was ayah, the beloved dad ever.

ayah: tido ke?
me : hmmmpphh...
ayah: tak, saje je call. baju yg ila beli semalam tu abah pkai pegi kenduri tadi.
ramai org tegur, baru balek indon ke? hehe.
me : owh, a'ah. tu baju indon. hehe.
ayah: terima kasih la belikan. laen kali beli lagi. tapi saiz XL la kot. yang ni kecik sikit. hehe.
me :hahaha. ye nanti ila tgok lagi.
ayah: k lah, tdo lah.
me : hmmpphh...

then i grabbed my pillow back n continued sleeping.

wait. wait. wait. wait. wait.

did ayah say thank you?

did he?

owh my God.

a father thank his daughter for buying a 43-ringgit cloth for him?

while the daughter herself RARELY say thank you though the father has raised her for 20 years?

owh my God.

my dad is damn AMAZING. i know. i know. and i know.

i will never ever find a guy like him.

he's my one in a million.

if i am about to write about him, more than thousand papers may be needed. there are too much to say about him. he's the perfect one i've ever known in my lifetime. he's apparently my idol. i wanna be like him. i promise i'l treat my children the way he's treating us now.

owh, gotta stop. phonology homeworks are waiting.

but dear Ayah, i want u to bear this in mind. always.
three words, three syllables, eight letters;

I LOVE YOU! ;)

someone is getting married!

ini kakak saye.

well slightly, she is the old version of me right?
this lady is my 25-yr-old eldest sister.
she's getting married!
-next year. huhu.
yeah, it's too early to talk on.
but im just toooooo happy for her.
this will be the first biggest event in our family.
*grin*

but still,
i thought i will be the first one to get married ;p

chill, babe!

the end for Halaqah ;(

well, tecnically, the Halaqah a.k.a. study circle has ended last week, since it was the last one lah kan. but the full stop for me was when we finished the exam, this morning. it was quite easy. yeah, i dare enough to say that since i did not study quite well. anyway, it has nothing to do with my position as the facilitator. it was not because i will automatically be graded with A without any answer sheet, but something has actually made me a bit blurry; questioning things i will never ever be answered. sigh. enough for that. after the exam, as we already planned, i, with the halaqah sisters went together for lunch. my treat. but yea, things only can be planned. some of us, or i can say half of us were having more important things to be done, with reasonable reasons to be mentioned. in brief, they couldn't make it. i was a bit sad cause i've had managed things i'd gonna say to them ;(.

well, fine then. i didn't mind at all.

these are some of the wonderful people that had cheered my life up ;)

clockwise: Nurrul, Intan, Eza, Zatil, Munira, me, and Sofia.
(haha Nurrul is sleeping so soundly. cute, isn't she? ;) )

as i mentioned before, i've things to be said to each one of them. yea, each one of them. they had commented on me, so did i ;) well girls, since not everyone gathered today, so i'll just mention them here yea. blame me not ;P. don't tell me i didn't ask you to come. hehe. bear these in mind. im gonna let you know what i thought of you and the reason why you guys will never ever be forgotten.

at the very first day, i was actually feeling so so bad. i was scared that i know, i was not that qualified to monitor a group of people. while i was talking to you, my heart was actually beating so so so fast. i couldn't breath properly. as i expected, most of you are older than me. and that made me even nervous. hell nervous! while you were looking me smile, i was actually screamed like hell inside! huhu. i was scared, girls. i was that afraid that i would not be able to be a good naqibah. sigh.

1. Intan.
-as i told you, the first time i saw you, i stumbled! haha. but it's true! i talked to myself: "is she going to eat me later?". haha. but then, you were the first one who made me feel belong to this group, and created the zone of comfort ;). you smiled a lot and that wiped my nervous off. thanks, Intan. please do keep smiling coz it never fails to cheer me up ;).
and believe this, you were one of the reasons why i always couldn't wait for attending each session. wo hen ai ni, ni ne? ;)

2. Munira.
-this girl had driven me crazy at first place. haha. you rarely smiled! even when i was making jokes that deserved to be laughed at. i thought you were bored. each time i looked at you, i was like asking you this; "am i that boring, munira?". huhu. but then, day by day, it seemed like i was getting to know you even better. you are not that serious, but so soft spoken. you described me as a low profile person, but believe this, you are even more low profile. keep it up, babe. perempuan melayu terakhir are not that much these days. ;)

3. Nasuha.
-this lawyer-to-be was the real challenge. you refuted a lot. you replied me a lot. and guess what, sometimes you even made me stuttered inside. ;p. but thanks, that reminded me to be more prepared. you advised me to participate more. i didn't really get it. if you were referring to my less participation during discussion, it was because i wanted each of you to participate, for the sake of marks. (10% for participation, remember?) i kept my words inside, didn't want to interfere. if there was no mark for participation, where everyone could just keep silent, the session would be surely mine. yea, completely mine. hehe. anyway, thanks again. somehow you did inspire me to keep on improving myself. kudos, dear!

4. Hafidzah.
-ha, this girl had not shown up till the 9th session! haha. so basically you were the last person who got to know me. but there was no awkwardness between us right? you said i am a person that can be tolerated. thanks for that. i'll keep that up. coz you know what, in real life, sometimes it is impossible to see me being like that. if i say A, then it must be A. not even a chance for any B or C. hehe. anyway, you are not bad too. you talked a lot. remember the first session you attended? you asked me about the problem that your friend was having. keep up being such a good friend!

5. Sakinah.
-do i have to say anything, unnie? owh, coz i didn't even notice that you were in my group. haha, kidding! how could i do not notice the very very effing good friend of mine? you were the reason i could take a deep, relieved breath at the end of the first session. you were my strentgh. only one word, dear. you are such an amazing friend of mine.
but guess what? i am like regretting for not issuing you the barring letter. haha. kill me not! coz i damn love you. ;)

6. Zatil.
-the only thing i will never ever forget about you is the way you looked at me. i don't know how to say this but it was calm, it calmed me down. this may be sound funny, but your eyes were like saying; "Nabila, keep going. i like you". haha. i am so syok sendiri kan? hehe. anyway, you said you like the way i treated my halaqah sisters. thanks, im glad to hear that coz that was one of my priorities; to make each one of you feel comfortable with me.

7. 'Ain.
-this girl is nice. if im not mistaken, you were the last person showed up during the first session. is my memory that strong, Ain? ;) you were just like others; always made me feel calm and relax. let's have ice creams when we bumped into each other again, yea? my treat. hari tu makan sorang2 je! hehe ;)

8. Nurrul.
-ha ni pun mule2 nmpk garang, just like Intan. hehe. the first glance from you made me breathed so hardly. haha. but when i got to know you even better, you are such a soft and calm person, just like others. you said i have the sense of humour. thanks a lot, that i at last knew that i was not syok sendiri by making silly jokes. huhu. and yea, i will never ever forget the moment you talked about your sister. thanks a lot, coz that actually warned and reminded me to be good to my sisters too. you yourself are like the sister i always want to hug. welcome me? ;)

9. Eza.
-just one word. Eza is nice. just like your good buddies; Zatil and Munirah. you talked so politely to me. that was so sweet and nice, dear. when i stuttered, you were one of the people i wanted to look at, coz you would smile at me, encouraging me to keep going , and that everything would be fine. thanks a lot. let's have lunch together again yea? your treat pulak! ;)

10. Fatanah.
-you were the one sitting beside me during the first session right? owh, thanks a lot for that. coz everyone was looking for a seat that was far from me. hehe. im not a canibal, but omnivor, people! ;) i was getting more nervous when i got to know that you are an Islamic Education student. coz you are surely more knowledgeable than me. but instead of questioning such like difficult problems to me, you showered more good points and suggestions. thanks for that. and yea, you are one of the people who i believe deserved my place more than i did. fancy me to take the naqibah form for you? ;)

11. Zubaidah.
-one main thing i will never ever forget about this amazing lady is that she was the one who called herself "akak" with me. haha. and yea, you wrote the words 'very cute face' to describe the things you personally like about me. thanks a lot that i would burst with laughter each time i remember that. coz the reality is obviously opposite it. owh so ironic. huhu. you advised me to seek more knowledge about ukhrawi. thanks a lot kak. i admit that i rarely talked about ukhrawi. maybe i was afraid that people might not be convenient. but i shouldn't right? that's my responsibility as a naqibah. if that was the reason, i should have thought of the proper ways to use right? well i promise this will be improved later.

12. Sofia.
-okay, this speak-malay-rupanye foreigner is not really a 'foreigner' for me. you made me feel comfortable with you from the very beginning. you said i am easy to get along with. so are you. and yea, i personally like you coz you always came up with such brilliant and good points, views, and even reasons. you did help me loads of time; when i got stucked while talking. thanks. bear this in mind, you posses the quality of a naqibah. and everyone said that too. again, fancy my favor to get the form for you? i can do even more, dear ;)

13. Wahidah.
-alright, i've known this cute girl since i was at iium foundation centre, nilai. we were classmates for computer class, right? we even graduated together. thanks, for showing me your respect towards me as your facilitator though we once used to sit in the same row together before, as classmates. and that 'f'inger things' (ive no idea how to describe it) will ever be remembered. everyone does too. haha.


owh.

owh.

owh.

i finally finished. getting tired. but i did enjoy doing this. you will never get bored doing something for the people you love right? so did i. i do love you all, girls. you gave me a memory i will never ever forget for the rest of my life. thanks, thanks, and thanks. for everything; the respect, the encouragement, the support, and even the love ;). i've gotten stronger day by day. every session was too meaningful for me to forget.

though i am no longer your naqibah, can i have a place in your hearts as a friend? coz i already did.

someday, you may forget my name, my face, my voice.
but knowing you, is already a great gift for me!

wishing you a very bright future.
have a good life ever. take care. xoxo.

Drama acting assignment plus poetry night.

last monday, 16th march, the drama performance took place. it was held at Main Auditorium. there were two groups performing at that night; my group (mdm Rohani's class), and muffin's (bro Shahrul's). mine was an adaptation of Lysistrata, a Greek play, (for the synopsis, read it at Nadea's. hehe) and muffin's was a modern one, created by her, Dedo and Nana (if i'm not mistaken). i honestly enjoyed the play though somebody had bashed it, so strongly. the play was just like the movie, Hide and Seek; where the character is having split personality.
hmpph, basically im not gonna say more on this. coz this thing had actually been the reason for a so-called havoc, created by somebody and with something. so what then? im gonna put a finger on my mouth, and stop pressing the keyboard, and start adding photos. yeah, only photos.

the chorus of women and the entrance of Acropolis. (without Eslam and kak Atiqah)

the journey we took to bring the entrance to Main Audi. lolz.

the chorus of women with the opposite one. see, Ain was so cute right? ;)

we didn't get to take loads of picture together, coz madam asked for the costumes back, just after the performance ended. yea, we all only borrowed them from ASWARA (akademi seni dan warisan). should i say credit to madam? oh yea i should. Credit to madam!.

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two days after that, the Poetry students did their poetry performance. overall, it was much much better and enjoyable than ours. a classmate said it was because their lecturers had contributed and participated a LOT. they did help in almost everything; from the preparation, till the lighting for the stage. Ours? OBVIOUSly did not. we did everything by ourselves. thus no wonder the whole night was all messy and bla bla bla. CLEARly, we were not gooood enough.

some poets did make me laugh a lot and some just made me think of the reason why i was there. well i came just because of Atiqah, my former roomate, since she watched mine. (you should be so pleased, tiqah!). and ya, she was one of the permormers! though she did forget some lines (i did too!), but overall it was good enough for someone who started memorizing the poem about 5 hours before! she used to be the back-up one, but due to a so-called technical problem, she had to. Anyway, Tiqah, you were good. believe me, or you can have the recording that i made ;).

by the way, one thing had bothered me. there was a guy, a poet, dressing like a girl; wearing skirt and with stuffs like handbag and bla bla. i was annoyed. too annoyed to watch 'something' like that in there. i was a bit ashamed coz i was with a former schoolmate, who i invited to sort of 'feel and see' how and what BENL students are. luckily i had no idea who the guy was. sigh.

anyway, at least some poets did really really well! a tumultuous applause to Ain and Illya! these two poets; who were my ex-roomate and ex-classmate had done their very very best in making me impressed. yeah, i was so impressed. Kudos to both of you!

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went back to room. tired. and depressed. tooooooo depressed. the reason why? that's the secret i'll never ever tell.

full stop.

new Hawkeye baby =3

i bought these days ago.
owh, chenta!

who says money can't buy happiness? =3

i felt a bit down today- got pissed off.
some people look and act like they're good. yea, very very good.
but the reality is totally opposing it. owh, so ironic!

after drama class
i went somewhere, and spent some money.

eventually, i smiled widely.
hey, i bought happiness!

so, the conclusion is,
in some contexts, money can brings happiness =3

p/s: Jusco skrg tgah sale, in conjuction with its 25th anniversary.
(i bought a 25ringgit cardigan for 10ringgit :P)

must-have things~

a buddy asked, why do i always bring a big bag when going out- instead of small handbag; a simple & easy one.

me: though i am just going to jusco to shop, these things must be brought along. coz life is unpredictable. anything can happen kan.
so, "sediakan payung sebelum hujan". lol =3

1. Purse,

2. Mobile phone,

3. Plain water, (to avoid dehydration. n yea, i talk a lot. need to drink more)

4. Umbrella, (in case klu hujan. n yea, i hate being exposed to the sun light)

5. Portable toothbrush + toothpaste, (owh sgt perlu. especially after mkn coklat :P)

6. Hand sanitizer, (some toilets don't provide sabun)

7. Breath spray, (sbgai gnti gula2 mint after mkn)

8. Tissues, (aren't provided in some toilets too)

9. Folded paper fan, (in case blackout plak dlm train. haha)

10. Reusable shopping bag, (save the earth, ppl!)

11. Lip moisturizer, (my lips get dried quickly)

12. UV-protect compact powder,

13. Dental floss. (for things between teeth yg still couldnt be removed by brushing)

14. a bunch of coins.

^_^

so briefly, sy adelah seorg yg sgt berjage2 coz i hate being in such petty troubles.


what bout u? =3