random.

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when we are single,

it does not mean nobody wants us,

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when we have a boyfriend or girlfriend,

it does not mean they will be our life time partner.

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and when we break a relationship,

it will never be the end of our love life.

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For God knows better,

better than what we really really know :)

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*credit to my beloved Kak Sirratul Ainn Borhan :)*

burning the midnight oil.

It's 5.13 am and I haven't switched off the light yet. the room mate already wakes up. she wakes up early everyday to perform Sunat prayer and I'm still awake doing something not related to religious duties. kalau ayah tahu ni mesti kena lecture setengah jam like he always did when I was at high school heh.

eh no no. not studying Arabic instead huhu. I'm just fulfilling the KPI of MRC. this is the third one i prepared but will be the first one to take place for REAL. I've done two proposals before but both of them were not approved due to some technical problems and time constraint, apart from my tiredness in handling two big University events (Sports Carnival and IMCDW) without much helps. so this is it; my very first Mahallah program :)

since it hasn't be submitted to the Principal yet, it's better to keep the event a secret. private and confidential haha. but since I'm in charge of Culture and Arts bureau, any programs under me would be the fun and joyous ones only.

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anyway, this program is in conjuction with a BIG event of Mahallah Asiah on this coming July. for god's sake, we've been discussing on it even before second semester ended months ago. the event will be held insyaAllah in a week time, with lots of programs in it including those managed by me.

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ha this is what I like being a MRC. I get to be a program manager. kalau tak guys je yg selalu hold the position. sebelum2 ni pun I always be their assistant.

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I'll be managing two programs. (tapi proposal baru 1 completed) it's totally hard for me when my fellow in charge is far far away from me. she's in a long vacation with her family at the States. but Alhamdulillah everything goes well so far. wish it will be a blast one later!

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*I'm in dilemma whether to continue my position in MRC or not. if I do, I'll be promoted to the mainboard. the heart says NO, because my pointer has dropped. the desire says YES, because it prepares me to do well in the future and gives me good experiences and memories to keep! need to ask my parents and sisters as well. need to make a right decision now so that bad things won't happen again. na'uzubillah, o Allah, keep me away from that. need to list up the pros and cons. okay. will do. praying...*

I'm not a bad person.

(this is not a self-compliment)

dear you,

you've known me for years.

I'm not a bad person.

I don't hold any grudges against anybody.

I just need more time to think.

and to be strong again.

so many things happened to me lately.

I just couldn't focus on anything else but those troubled things.

don't call me an egoist,

cause I'm not.

I'm just a weak, secretive person who hides all pains in her smiles.
and her total silence.

when the time comes,

I'll take the first step and bridge the gap.

I'm not a bad person.

and so are you.

*you know who you are*

i like!

"Don’t cry for a man who’s left you,

the next one may fall for your smile"

-Mae West

May 11, 2010.

unlike usual my day began way earlier. 6.45am- i was standing in front of Asiah's office, waiting for another two MRCs. half asleep. thanks for the bus driver for giving us a lift to the main staircase. 7.05am- the three of us were already late but jeez, excluding us only four people were there. thought we had missed the bus but surprisingly we were among the first ones. bla bla bla we arrived at the Putrajaya International Convention Centre around 9am or in other words, 1 hour late. the convention had already started and for god's sake by the time we entered the hall and were looking for seats, all of sudden we became the subject of the speaker. if i'm not mistaken he said something like 'pemimpin mesti selalu menepati masa. bukan datang sejam lewat'. sangat malu okayyy.

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it was Kongres Integriti Pemimpin Mahasiswa 2010

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with a slogan "1Malaysia Berintegriti: Mahasiswa Melestari".

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the participants were all MPPs of IPT and IPTS from all over Malaysia.

overall, though it was a bit boring but i kinda liked it. to be honest i couldn't really understand most of the speeches because the speakers were all speaking the advanced Malay language. well, you can't expect me to understand such so-called-bombastic words like 'melestari', 'mencanai', 'menggarap', etc. duh. perlu belajar lagi bahasa ibunda. bahasa melayu saya tak hebat. sebab tu tak pernah join debat melayu.

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apart from those hard-to-grasp speeches i still enjoyed the convention because i do love participating in such prestigious events,

because the food was yummy,

and because of him,

Prof. Madya Dr. Asyraf Wajdi Dasuki Dato' Haji Dasuki is currently the Head of Research Affairs, International Shariah Research Academy for Islamic Finance (ISRA). some interesting facts (for me) about him are that he graduated from IIUM years ago and was once an Assistant Professor at the KENMS. oh yea, he is a politician too. i love his speech. to be honest, his was the only one i really2 listened to during that conference. i just couldn't take my eyes off him. the impromptu speech was inspiring, excellent, superb, and most importantly islamic. he was touching on the 'Integriti Pemimpin Mahasiswa: Merealisasi Harapan 1Malaysia Berintegriti'. mula2 dengar topik dah geleng2 kepala but he made it soo interesting with those Islamic aspects he included plus Quranic verses and Prophet's Ahadith he quoted in his speech. it was hilarious that i and kak wana kept guessing which Kuliyyah he was from. but yeah, his way of speaking (inclusion of religious terms) always fascinated me. way to go! bla bla bla... briefly, he did inspire me a lot. kudos to Dr. Asyraf :) glad that i've met another great person, and wish that someday, i can be like him. *praying*

maka sekarang should continue cramming for Arabic test tomorrow night. mesti dapatkan A!

to all, Bittaufiq Wannajah :)

p/s: in conjuction with Hari Belia Negara, there'll be a Karnival Kerjaya & Keusahawanan Graduan 2010 at PWTC, starting tomorrow, 14th until 16th of May.