The memorable journey to Sandakan.

Howdy, people. It's been two days since I reached home. and since that too, I've been planning to blog on my unforgettable memories in Sandakan. I wish I could upload all photos for permanent storage purpose but I already got tired of uploading half of those huhu. I wish I could write on every single thing happened there but some things are better kept secret :) as what life is, there are sweet as well as bitter memories. Despite those bitterness, all I want to say is that this journey to Sandakan with MISIans is one of the most awesome experiences I ever had in my lifetime! Kudos to all.

5th of July

Around 10pm, all people involved gathered at MISI's Operation Room, located in CCAC building. Final touch-ups were done by the respected main boards and several briefings were given by the Program Manager, Program Coordinator, and me myself as the Assistant Head of Discipline and Ibadah. To be frank, I could feel the nervousness at that time. This is my very first program with MISI, after all :) Before the clock struck 12, we headed to LCCT by IIUM bus and reached there after about 1 hour.

briefing by the PM.

6th of July

Due to certain circumstances, we were divided into two teams. Team A would fly straightly to Sandakan while Team B would reach Kota Kinabalu first. I was included in Team A. Around 7.00 am, we officially began our journey to Sandakan :) It took about 3 hours to reach Sandakan. My back hurt a lot. The worst part was that I couldn't sleep during the last two hours, because of stomach ache. Hence I did anything I could; read all magazines provided, went through the tentative and facilitating modules, etc. I had no one to talk to since Ima seemed to be sleeping so soundly. huhu. Around 10.00 am, the suffering ended! Hello Sandakan, cantiknya airport! I was seriously amazed but before I had the chance to explore, I was in need to find Ladies first. hihi. Then we met Kak Bell and Kak Lala there. They brought us to Kompleks Sukan Sandakan; where we would be staying for one night.

pathetic girls who were abandoned by the guys.

group photo. click!

here it is. Nice place :)

(referring to the first aid kit I was holding) it was the night where I was appointed to be in charge of Welfare bureau.

7th of July

After breakfast, we all headed to SMKA Sandakan (SMAS). Nervousnya time ni! In less than 5 minutes time, we reached the school. As told by the PM, who's a former student of SMAS, the school is surprisingly big. We were welcomed by the counseling teacher. Right after storing our luggages, we began our final preparation for the most-awaited Educational Hearten Camp :)

one-day room mates!

again, group picture :)

8th of July

As the Discipline and Ibadah committee, I was among the ones who woke up first. Surprisingly, I managed to wake up earlier than others till the last day of program. Breaking the habit, huh? :p The Opening Ceremony of EHC started at 9.00 am sharp (if I'm not mistaken) and ended one hour after that. At 1.30 pm, form 3 and form 5 students of SMAS began reaching the hall for registration and that was when we officially started the program :) We started the modules even until midnight. I was partnered with my Sarawakian course mate: Noor Atiqah Rafa'ie. What a nice person to work with :) Our group was the eleventh one which was then named "Panthera Leo". Great work. It was seriously a tiring day since I was also busy preparing for the Self Enhancement; a slot under Discipline and Ibadah Bureau. I even skipped dinner :( However, the first slot entitled "Adakah Lelaki lebih hebat daripada Wanita" went great. I could see the enthusiasm in every student's face. Each one of them has the potency to excel. They expressed their brilliant point of views. It was extremely excellent :) Around 1.00 pm, we called it a day but only 1 hour after that I managed to close my eyes.

lovin' this backdrop :)

silliness due to sudden boredom.

emcees of the day; Haire and Hilda.

my most favorite group photo of all!

explaining the rules and regulation to the students. trembling~

9th of July

The most hectic day ever!~~ Again, I was the earliest one to wake up. If I'm not mistaken, it was 3.50 am in the morning. My head hurt a lot but Alhamdulillah I managed to bear it. I woke all committees up and began calling for all students to go to Musolla for Qiyamullail. Honestly speaking, it was a hard task for me since I ain't such a strict person with a voice which people would be scared of. It hurt when most students were just ignoring my announcement. It hurt more when they replied with such a harsh word. huhuhu :( after Qiyamullail, we had our second Self Enhancement. This time, we dealt with Love issue. Again, it was nice seeing all students were so enthusiastic in voicing out their opinions. After the slot ended, they had breakfast (which I again, skipped) and began the brand-new day with more modules. Throughout the day, I admit that I was a bit strict to my brothers and sisters. I just couldn't help it. My body condition was getting worse at that time hence I couldn't entertain them nicely. For God's sake, it was too painful to bear :( I managed to take lunch but didn't finish all of it due to some personal reasons. huhu. Before the evening session ended, my head of Discipline and Ibadah Bureau assigned me a new task for our next Self Enhancement slot which would take place in 2 hours time. Hence again, I skipped dinner to start the preparation all over again. This time, the discussion was about "Malu". As the previous slots, it went great too and I do hope that all students did learn something from that. It ain't wrong to be shy but it must be according to the context. What I could obviously observe was that most students are too shy in most situations and this is apparently not good for them. It is understandable that they are trained that way but as someone who was also educated in a religious school, their condition is quite critical. Nak masuk musolla pun malu. It ain't embarrassing but rather pathetic. May things get better soon, InsaAllah. At night, we had Islamic Cultural Night; where students had to perform according to the task given. Right after that, we proceeded with Momentous Night; another slot under Discipline and Ibadah Bureau but this time, it was fully handled by Syaufiq. yadda yadda yadda, as usual, we ended the day at around 1.00 pm.

MISI's advisor: Prof. Dr. Dolhadi Zainudin :)

my Panthera Leo during the Islamic Night :)

10th of July

Just like previous times, my day began way earlier than others. I was the first one to wake up besides Kak Jijah. After waking up all committees, I rested for a while. I thanked God that Syaufiq decided to cancel the next Self Enhancement slot but replace it with a morning exercise called Break Bone slot. Way better though. We then had our breakfast, which I didn't skip this time sebab tersangatlah lapar huhu. We then proceeded our next modules before I began preparing the emcee text with my pair, Hilda, while others were enjoying their Explorace game. At 2.00 pm sharp, the Closing Ceremony of EHC took place. Frankly speaking, it was the worst experience as an emcee. I was seriously not in a good condition. Fever - sore throat - cough, whatever you name it huhu. However, thanks to Allah that it had ended smoothly. We then headed to Kg. Bokara for the next program; Foster Family. I was adopted by Hjh. Zaharah and Hj. Hassan. The best part was that I was not alone; Izzah Rohimi was under the same family :) We chatted a lot after reaching the house. We also managed to do group visit to other foster families and due to unspeakable weariness, we straightly went to bed after that. ohh, I had fresh sea weeds for dinner! awesomeeeeee :)

worst experience ever. anyway, thanks Hilda :)

facilitator-less group hihi. Kak Erin left early.

kudos to all. Salute!~

my Panthera Leo luvvies :)

Kak sayang kamu semua :')

11th of July

I initially planned to wake up early to help Mama and others preparing Nasi Lemak and Nasi Kuning. Oh, my foster family owns a stall near the entrance of Kg. Bokara. Mama's a very good cook. I miss her Nasi Lemak the most! Kuih2 pun sangat sedap :) Back to the story, I and Izzah didn't wake up as early as we had planned. We rushed to the bathroom, taking shower, preparing ourselves for the next activity. Our Mama cooked a lot, and of course I ate a lot :p Superb! She even packed some food; which made everyone envy of me hihi. Then we all headed to Sepilok; another amazing adventure. Besides Mount Kinabalu, I had always wanted to visit Sepilok. But since I already paid the Orang Utan a visit at the National Zoo few weeks earlier, I wasn't as excited as I was at the National Zoo back then. However I was glad to see them doing just fine in Sepilok. Sadly, I decided not to join others to go inside the place. -'cause my fear of leeches and things like that exceeded my excitement to see Orang Utan. eeiii. There were a few of us though. Hence we went for post-breakfast at Sepilok cafe. Makan lagi. When it was about Zuhr time, we all had sponsored lunch. Makannnn lagi. Bla bla bla...jalan2 di Sandakan city...we went back to Kg. Bokara for a session with the children of Bokara :) It was nice though. They seemed to enjoy it. Apart from teaching them English, we taught them some other things we did in SMAS. Before Maghrib appeared, we reached our own foster home and got prepared for a mass dinner :) Bla bla bla...balik rumah, tido :)

hey, I was here!

sleepyheads!

the smiles to cover the unbearable sleepiness.

LOL. Bella was adopted at Sepilok!

highlight of the day! :P

two people got bored.

with Kak Jijah and Mimie~~

the people who still had fun outside.

chicken burgers for late breakfast.

sponsored lunch. Free food always taste the best :P

them. at Pasar Umum Sandakan.

another us.

special session with teens of Bokara.

happy faces of Bokara's younger generation :)

with Mama and Izzah before heading to dinner.

at the Steamboat restaurant :)

Izzah and Mama :)

12th of July

-The final day in Sandakan :( Just like the day before, again, we woke up a bit late huhu malu jak sama Mama and Kak Arida huhuhu :( I thanked them for understanding our condition. I had not had sufficient rest even since our stay in SMAS. My fever was getting better but head ache had not gone yet. After having breakfast, I and Izzah straightly went to Bokara's Balai Raya for Closing Ceremony, where I was suddenly assigned to be the emcee with Abg. Pajil. I wasn't mentally prepared, but Alhamdulillah it wasn't that bad. I was not in a good mood but I did have to put away all those thoughts and feelings. The ceremony was fun though; with Marhaban performance as well as the Igal-Igal dance. Nice :) Then, at around 1.00 pm, we headed to Majlis Perbandaran Sandakan for some briefings and refreshments. Then, jalan- jalan lagi. We hit Pasar Umum Sandakan, for the second time, spending money on souvenirs to be brought back, and then visited Agnes Keith House before it got dark. At around 7.00 pm we arrived at Sandakan Airport as our flight to KL would be at 9.30 pm. Sedihnya huhu :( My foster family even came to the airport to say goodbye. I was deeply moved to tears. I bore that, so I wouldn't be too sad to leave them. There's always another time. If God wills, I'll hit Sandakan again :)

Then after about 3 hours, we safely arrived at LCCT. We had our late dinner together and headed back to UIA. That's when the journey officially ended.

sudden preparation before emcee-ing.

famous Igal - Igal dance hand movement :P

with Mama and Izzah after the ceremony.

I miss this :'(

cantik kan Kak kami? :)

Mama and Bapak. Oh my~ I couldn't watch her crying :'(

in the end, I couldn't bear my own tears. tskk.

briefing at MPS.

depictness of our boredom.

group picture at Agnes Keith.

sampai terjatuh aku.

Mimie :)

Ima :)

me with Mama at the airport.

my 15-year-old foster sister. pandai masak ni tau :) -unlike me.

Kak Arida yang cantikkk :) Teda pun gambar sama Kak Ngah :(

That's it. I miss Sandakan. I miss my Panthera Leo in SMAS. I miss my foster family in Bokara. I miss every single thing happened there. One thing for sure, I'm gonna hit that place again. InsyaAllah :) I love all of you. Thank you for the beautiful memories. Thank you for the wonderful experiences. For God's sake, those memories will never be erased and you will never ever be replaced.

Hugs and kisses from me! :')

sayonara Sandakan :')

the proof of my existence. lol.

the trio DO RE MI :) Ima & Mimie ~

hello Kuala Lumpur! LOL. I'm finally back to KL. Currently spending the remaining days at IIUM before beginning family vacation at Terengganu tomorrow! I am missing each one of 'em. I miss Aleesya! Before I manage to start my 2-month semester break, I already got another offer to be part of the team for an English camp for CFS students on this coming 30th to 31st of July. Will be staying at Prof. Dr. Aldila's; the current director of SLEU. Am so looking forward to working with her. She's awesome :)

I miss Sandakan. I miss my Kg. Bokara family :')

too many photos to upload, too much thoughts to share. will be updating soon.

for now, family first! happy hols, loves. I heart you~~

to all my beloved brothers and sisters in SMAS, to my priceless foster family in Kg. Bokara, to all awesome people involved in EHC 2011;

till then!

Summary of "An Islamic History of Europe" documentary and whatnot

(posted upon request)

As what my former lecturer had once said; one of the duties as a Muslim is to educate people. Hence, for the sake of that, as well as to fulfill his request, I decided to post my summary of a documentary entitled; An Islamic History of Europe. The documentary can be watched here. Apart from the summary, I also briefly include Harun Yahya's piece of the History of Islam, and some Muslim contributions to the world.

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Summary of "An Islamic History of Europe" documentary

This “An Islamic History of Europe” documentary; produced by BBC, hosted by Rageh Omaar, highlights on the influences brought by Muslims to Europe countries. It also emphasizes on the effects of the Islamic civilizations towards Europe. In this documentary, the presenter visited some countries known as Medieval Muslime Europe, which are Spain, Sicily and France, where he could be exposed to the real story of Europe in the past, when its civilization was strongly influenced by Islamic learning. Generally, those who have not seen this documentary would have no idea that Islamic learning did leave such a gigantic impact on the Western world, not only in Arts, but also in Science and Philosophy fields, and that Islamic rule in Europe had made quite a number of achievements in such a short period. It has always been said that European history is much more related to or is fully originated from Greece and Rome. However the reality is that it did receive such a big influence from Islamic civilization. The video starts with the exposition to the time where emirs and caliphs dominated Spain and Sicily. It is also shown that Islamic scholarship had been looked forward to by many scholars of Europe. This proves that Europe owed too much to Islam for its contribution in many fields such as science and culture during the era of European Renaissance. Rageh Omaar had also visited a city of Spain, named Cordoba. From the visit, he managed to discover that Cordoba was once ruled by Muslims. Rageh also managed to be exposed to the moment (13^th century of Paris) where Cristian scholars were wronged by the Church for applying logic in their doctrines. It is believed that it all started due to the writings of Ibnu al-Rushd, a philosopher of Cordoba, who based his writings on Aristotle’s regarding truth and revelation. Back in Spain, Rageh got to see the impressive royal palaces of the Alhambra, Granada. Apart from that, he also got to see the proofs of the knowledge contributed by Muslims such as in Mathematics, Poetry and Architecture. Unfortunately, after a period of time, Muslims had lost their kingdom to Ferdinand and Isabella, the first monarchs of Europe. After spending some time discovering other contributions of Muslims in Spain, Rageh returned back to where he started the journey. The documentary was ended by his visit at the local cemetery of Tarifa, where he found the tombs of unknown people, believed as the modern North African immigrants. In a nutshell, this journey is all about the “Golden Age’, where Muslims knowledge, originated from the East was developed and shared in the West.

Brief History of Islam in Europe by Adnan Oktar

Harun Yahya, an Islamic writer had mentioned in his online article that many historians and sociologists assert today that Islam was the leading cause of Europe's movement from the darkness of its Middle Ages to the brilliance of its Renaissance. At a time when Europe was backward in medicine, astronomy, mathematics, and many other fields, Muslims possessed a vast treasure of knowledge and great possibilities of development. It can be seen that this statement may conclude as well as strengthen what Rageh Omaar had discovered in his Islamic journey. He had also included that Europeans were first realize of the power of Muslims when the caliph ‘Umar ibn al-Khattab took control Jurusalem. Due to that event, Europeans started to be aware that Islam was widely spreading. They then began to fight against Muslims to gain Jurusalem back. As a result of that, Europeans had made contact with the Muslim world, and indirectly lead to the rebirth of Europe which was once dwelled in darkness, conflicts, and war. Europeans then encountered that Islamic world was not only prosperous and civilized, but was also advanced in the fields of medicine, astronomy, mathematics, as well as their social lives. Europeans also found that there were some values that were not available in European world at that time, and they learnt that these values; such as pluralism, tolerance, etc. were the reasons behind Muslims’ high morality, with strong belief upon their religion.

Muslims’ Contributions to the World

In this new era, Islam is rarely seen as the leading source of enlightenment. It is to be aware of that during Middle Ages, it was Islam that had caused Europe to reborn. As Muslims, it is our responsibility to always appreciate every single contribution Islam had made towards European civilization. A few centuries after the Hijrah, Muslim scholars started to obtain treatises from Greek and then began their study translation works. Muslim scholars made critical analysis and corrections towards Greek science and philosophy. That was when the Golden Age of Islam initially began. The Golden Age which lasted for over two centuries is where we can find about Muslims’ contributions in many fields.

Medical Science

Among all fields where Muslim scholars had contributed in, Medical Science is one of the most outstanding ones. Under this field, several important names could be highlighted. The first one is Al-Razi. His greatest achievement of in the realm of medical science is the most comprehensive encyclopedia of medicine ever written by a medical man, which runs into 20 volumes. Al-Razi has also contributed to gynecology, obstetrics, ophthalmology and has written valuable treatise on the treatment of some common diseases in the East. He was also an eminent surgeon and is the inventor of 'Seton' in surgery. Next is Abu Ali Al-Husain-al-Sina. He was one of the greatest intellectuals of the Islamic world. His gigantic work; AlQanun-Fil-Tib is a medical encyclopedia dealing with 760 drugs, as well as with general medicine, simple drugs, and diseases affecting all parts of the body. Besides, Ali Ibn Isa of Baghdad has written an excellent treatise on ophthalmology, a branch of medicine dealing with eye diseases. It was considered the authoritative work on eye diseases in Europe till the middle of the 18th century.

Scientific Inventions

Among significant Muslim scholars to be highlighted on is Abul Hasan, who is distinguished as the inventor of the Telescope. Another invention made by Muslim scholar was the first watch. It was created by Kutbi, a renowned watch-maker of his time (Abbasid reign). At that time a watch was considered a novel thing and an object of wonder in Europe. Other than that, Mir Fatehullah Khan is known as the inventor of gun and gunpowder. The presumption that gunpowder was first made by the Chinese does not stand the test of historical research. Next, Ibn Firnas is credited with making glass from stones. He even had constructed his home as a sort of planetarium where one could see stars, clouds and even lightning.

Music

A wrong impression has been created in the minds of our educated class that Islam forbids all pursuits of fine arts. The fact is that Muslim scholars have patronized and actively participated in the propagation of fine arts. For instance, Al-Kindi is one of the greatest Arab theorists, who has written about a dozen treatises on music. His works contain a notation for the determination of pitch. Al-Khwarizmi, the greatest mathematician of the Islamic world is the author of the Key of sciences in which he discussed the theory of music.

Bibliography

Ahmad, H. (1997, April). Muslim Contributions to Science, Philosophy, and the Arts. Retrieved May 22, 2011, from Islam the Eternal Path to Peace: http://www.jannah.org/articles/contrib.html

Gupta, M. (2008, July 15). An Islamic History of Europe – Rageh Omaar. Retrieved 23 05, 2011, from Corporate Social Negligence!: http://tushizap.wordpress.com/2008/07/15/an-islamic-history-of-europe/

Muslim Contribution to the World. (n.d.). Retrieved May 23, 2011, from http://salems2.tripod.com/muslim_contribution_to_the_world.html

Oktar, A. (n.d.). Europe and Islam. Retrieved May 23, 2011, from Harun Yahya - An Invitation To The Truth: http://www.riseofislam.com/europe_and_islam_02.html

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p/s: off to Sandakan on this coming Wednesday morning. Preparations for Discipline and 'Ibadah Bureau are almost complete. Alhamdulillah, may Allah bless.

Do pray for our safe journey, InsyaAllah :)

The awesome denouement of semester 3, session 2010/2011

Semester 3 finally reached its end the moment I stopped writing my answers for Topics in Islamic Literature final exam questions. It was great. Albeit the depressing Continuous Assessment Marks, Alhamdulillah, I managed to organize my answers well. I even requested an extra paper from the invigilator since I happened to fill up all spaces provided before concluding the ramblings. Hence I stepped out grinning while searching for the girl friends. Short semester always gives a bigger impact on me, as compared to the normal long semester. Like the previous one, more precious memories were created during short semester; with less dramatic effects and more real scenes. Through group works which were done in a rush, our friendship bond has become stronger. We got closer. During the non-stop 3-hour classes, we learned to value each other as we struggled to survive together. LOL.

I love you, girl friends. Thanks a million for the priceless moments we spent together. I’m gonna miss the day we had lunch together, laughed our asses off, and did silly things in the car, etc. I’m gonna miss all of you :) To the dearest lecturers, Dr. Ismail Ahamad Shah and Dr. Md. Mahmudul Hasan, thank you so much for the lectures. You both are the best. Though I’m certain that you often caught me yawning and looking sleepy in class, I honestly value every single word of yours. Thank you so much. May Allah grant you both with His eternal love. Amiin.

Will be going back to UIA in 2 days time. We’ll all depart from UIA to Sandakan this Wednesday morning. There are countless things that I’m so looking forward to facing now. May everything run well, InsyaAllah. All the best!

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Our own luch provided by Far's mommy. Thank you aunty Sara :)

Farah Nornadiafatin. Geng library :P

with Sakinah. I bet Far didn't sleep well last night XD

been doing silly things together since CFS!

The Sufi, the Fakih, and the Sharif, and How Their Solidarity Was Destroyed by the Gardener. LOL!

Multimedia Crew for EHC

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*Waving*

a double-quick update.

Hey beautiful. Peace be upon y'all. Currently got more important things to do yet I feel guilty for abandoning my Fly High. LOL. Well, basically, I don't update as frequent as I used to, 'cause I'm busy with other commitments; EHC, translating job, assignments, group projects, as well as Final exams this Thursday and Sunday! plus, I'm more into Tweeter and Tumblr these days. Apparently, they are way easier and quicker than blogspot. Okay, enough said. Got to study now! All the best to all! Toodles :)

the body is here, but the soul is somewhere I don't belong to...

here are the photos taken during Kem Jejak Menara Gading which I was involved in, about two weeks ago. and these are my beautiful kiddos :

Thanks a LOT for the memories. You guys amazed me. Do well in UPSR, okay? will always pray for your best :)

well, I don't wanna talk much about this program 'cause to be frank, it's quite a dramatic one. The one I never experienced and ever expected before. Basically, it sucked. (Too much, I guess). Hmm, too much dramas and kurang professionalism. Enough said.

As for now, I'm struggling to finish up all assignments and mid term exams. Short semester will come to its end in about 3 weeks time! and I surely don't want these two subjects let me down.

This ain't a drug. But I'm addicted to it.

Have a wonderful day, loves!

Recaps on whatever things I'm concerned with.

Hello, gorgeous! Above is me, (photo's been deleted. hihi) trying a Forever-21 night dress. It was the day where I went out having lunch at Seoul Garden, One Utama with the lovely girl friends; Faten, Faliqeen, and Haneesa. Had a great moment chatting, gossiping, and window shopping though :)

Classes have been starting since last week. Having 3-hour classes are killing but I somehow do enjoy 'em. I love both classes. Error and Contrastive Analysis class is fun 'cause the topics discussed themselves are fun, and Dr. Ismail is too nice to be ignored :) While Topics in Islamic Literature is also fun, 'cause again, though it's a literature subject but it specifically touches on Islamic aspects hence I like it. Dr. Mahmudul Hasan is nice too. What amazes me the most is that he's a very organized person! and he's very helpful too. Frankly speaking, it's actually rare to find one like him :)

Apart form classes, I'm still doing the translating + subtitling job I used to do before. It's quite tiring but I'm thankful that at least there'll be no chance to waste time.

Apart from classes and part-time job, there'll be a few programs to join. From 27th to 29th July, I'll be a mentor for an educational program organized by SENDI club. Because of that, I just rejected an invitation to become the emcee for a seminar on Teacher's Day, since there's a clash in time between these two. Wish I could have both. Never mind lah, rejecting the most awaited opportunity is way better than breaking a promise I made earlier :) Next, Mak Ayah had permitted me to join a program conducted in Sandakan, Sabah. Yay! But need to work a lot to save money for that. Before getting my ass there, on 9th July, I need to attend the MAKNA Introductory Programme (MIP), which is compulsory to all volunteers. and yah, I just signed up to be a volunteer of MAKNA! Unexpectedly, MAKNA has scheduled a lot of programs throughout this year. Oh my~ I'm SO looking forward to joining a few of them.

And a few days after I come back from Sabah, I'll be attending the Basic Mission Training (BMT) of MERCY. I really2 wish I can make it this time since I had missed the one held during previous final exam week. *pray hard*

That's all for now. Had so much things to do. Two assignments have been received and due dates are just around the corner. And yah, Mid Term Exam is on its way too! *trembling*

Volunteering is my all-time passion, my one-of-the-things-worth-dying-for! A work of Heart! :)

with love, B.

into the new beginning!

Hello, short semester. Hello, Garden of Knowledge and Virtue.

Welcome to the beginning of more and more amazing things!

Hello, gorgeous! After 3-week semester break I finally got my ass here. Classes will begin this Tuesday. This time, I'll be doing two core courses; Error and Contrastive Analysis, and Islamic Literature. Wish everything runs well. InsyaAllah. Amin.

I think I'm starting to like blue color.

A gift from Mother. It's a type of cactus. Well, according to her.

extra 4 kilos, maybe?

Best wishes to all!

with love, B.

the ones I wanna become...

Hello, lovely! It’s been a while huh. Three reasons for that: I enjoy Tumblr and Twitter more, I have fewer points to write about these days, and as simple as it sounds; I am a lazybones. Tomorrow will be the last day of this semester break. Just like other IIUM-mates, I dislike this so much yet I can’t wait to begin short semester. Loads of things must be done and accomplished. Despite the fact that I enjoy being home, I love short semester so much. There’ll still be classes, quizzes, assignments, heartaches, heartbreak, melancholia, (over-nya) etc, but there’ll also be ample time for other fun, necessary activities! Yadda yadda yadda. As usual, the introduction has the possibility to be way longer than the highlights.

So here is my point. Since I am now officially a fourth-year English Linguistics major, I can’t stop myself from keep thinking about the plans for the future more seriously. I need and must be clear about what I want, and what I have to do. Well I ain’t going to talk about career thingy here (frankly speaking I am still dwelling in confusion regarding this matter) but rather a general picture of the ones I wish to become.

• I wanna be a moderate being who lives a simple yet meaningful life. Mind you, wealth guarantees nothing. In short, I wanna be a man of value. I don’t mind living in poor ‘cause what matters most is that I consistently be thankful for every single thing I have and enjoy every single thing I do.

• I wanna be a woman who faithfully devote herself to The Almighty, and at the same time is so knowledgeable about worldly affairs. Also, I aim to be a woman who will never go against her life principles, a woman who always speaks her mind and never afraid of voicing out the truth, yet is still maintaining the ideal characteristics of a Muslimah. Briefly, I wanna be a woman who shakes the world and at the same time, a woman of religion.

• I wanna be an independent adult who will never ever be blindly depending upon a guy called husband. I may end up being a single parent. And if that happens, I only have God, and my own self to be relied on. God knows better.

• I wanna be an educator whose aim is to shower the younger generation with both religious and world knowledge. I wanna be the first, qualified one teaching languages to my children as well as the first reliable person to teach them Al-Qur‘an. (remember, ilmu yang dimanfaatkan dibawa mati)

• I wanna be a daughter who always pleases her parents, repays them for every marvelous thing they have done. Obviously it won’t be enough. Only God has the capability to repay them but surely I won’t just stand still but indeed, do my best to give them the best. They deserve it, after all.

• I wanna keep being a volunteer who will never stop contributing to the society. Life is all about sharing. I don’t have much money to be donated but energy and enthusiasm. (amal jariah juga dibawa masuk kubur)

• I wanna keep being an animal lover, namely a cat lover, who sacrifices his food whenever he sees a hungry cat. Animals deserve a good life too.

• I wanna be a wife who never stops supporting her husband financially, mentally, and emotionally, etc. I wanna be my husband’s backbone; the one he can count on in all matters. I wanna be his best friend; who will always be there for him, his life partner; who wills to share and lend everything he wishes for, etc. In brief, I wanna be the one whom he feels his life won’t be complete without. I wanna be the reason for him to always smile, in whatever situations; be it sweet or bitter. I wanna be the reason for him to move on, lead a good life if I happen to meet the Maker first.

• I wanna be a mother who is capable of providing enough care, love, as well religious and world knowledge to the children. I wanna have the ability to read fairy tales to my children yet never forget to enrich their knowledge about the prophets. I wanna be the first one my children will look for whenever they have things to share, discuss, etc. I wanna shape them to be the ones who will keep praying for me when I slip away.

For the time being, I will keep being the 22-year-old-Nabila-Hanis-who-always-refuses-to-admit-that-she-is-22-but-rather-21, (ha-ha) who is never tired of discovering things, improving herself, and at the same time praying hard to achieve everything she aims on.

Enough for now. Before I end this post and before mommy keeps knocking the door to wake me up for Subuh, do bear this in mind;

So don’t ever live a life just because you need to, but because you have to. Remember;

Therefore, do have faith in God, have faith in yourself. Most importantly, Never lose hope. And just like Bieber says; Never say never. LOL.

With love, B, si ibu kucing.