the ones I wanna become...

Hello, lovely! It’s been a while huh. Three reasons for that: I enjoy Tumblr and Twitter more, I have fewer points to write about these days, and as simple as it sounds; I am a lazybones. Tomorrow will be the last day of this semester break. Just like other IIUM-mates, I dislike this so much yet I can’t wait to begin short semester. Loads of things must be done and accomplished. Despite the fact that I enjoy being home, I love short semester so much. There’ll still be classes, quizzes, assignments, heartaches, heartbreak, melancholia, (over-nya) etc, but there’ll also be ample time for other fun, necessary activities! Yadda yadda yadda. As usual, the introduction has the possibility to be way longer than the highlights.

So here is my point. Since I am now officially a fourth-year English Linguistics major, I can’t stop myself from keep thinking about the plans for the future more seriously. I need and must be clear about what I want, and what I have to do. Well I ain’t going to talk about career thingy here (frankly speaking I am still dwelling in confusion regarding this matter) but rather a general picture of the ones I wish to become.

• I wanna be a moderate being who lives a simple yet meaningful life. Mind you, wealth guarantees nothing. In short, I wanna be a man of value. I don’t mind living in poor ‘cause what matters most is that I consistently be thankful for every single thing I have and enjoy every single thing I do.

• I wanna be a woman who faithfully devote herself to The Almighty, and at the same time is so knowledgeable about worldly affairs. Also, I aim to be a woman who will never go against her life principles, a woman who always speaks her mind and never afraid of voicing out the truth, yet is still maintaining the ideal characteristics of a Muslimah. Briefly, I wanna be a woman who shakes the world and at the same time, a woman of religion.

• I wanna be an independent adult who will never ever be blindly depending upon a guy called husband. I may end up being a single parent. And if that happens, I only have God, and my own self to be relied on. God knows better.

• I wanna be an educator whose aim is to shower the younger generation with both religious and world knowledge. I wanna be the first, qualified one teaching languages to my children as well as the first reliable person to teach them Al-Qur‘an. (remember, ilmu yang dimanfaatkan dibawa mati)

• I wanna be a daughter who always pleases her parents, repays them for every marvelous thing they have done. Obviously it won’t be enough. Only God has the capability to repay them but surely I won’t just stand still but indeed, do my best to give them the best. They deserve it, after all.

• I wanna keep being a volunteer who will never stop contributing to the society. Life is all about sharing. I don’t have much money to be donated but energy and enthusiasm. (amal jariah juga dibawa masuk kubur)

• I wanna keep being an animal lover, namely a cat lover, who sacrifices his food whenever he sees a hungry cat. Animals deserve a good life too.

• I wanna be a wife who never stops supporting her husband financially, mentally, and emotionally, etc. I wanna be my husband’s backbone; the one he can count on in all matters. I wanna be his best friend; who will always be there for him, his life partner; who wills to share and lend everything he wishes for, etc. In brief, I wanna be the one whom he feels his life won’t be complete without. I wanna be the reason for him to always smile, in whatever situations; be it sweet or bitter. I wanna be the reason for him to move on, lead a good life if I happen to meet the Maker first.

• I wanna be a mother who is capable of providing enough care, love, as well religious and world knowledge to the children. I wanna have the ability to read fairy tales to my children yet never forget to enrich their knowledge about the prophets. I wanna be the first one my children will look for whenever they have things to share, discuss, etc. I wanna shape them to be the ones who will keep praying for me when I slip away.

For the time being, I will keep being the 22-year-old-Nabila-Hanis-who-always-refuses-to-admit-that-she-is-22-but-rather-21, (ha-ha) who is never tired of discovering things, improving herself, and at the same time praying hard to achieve everything she aims on.

Enough for now. Before I end this post and before mommy keeps knocking the door to wake me up for Subuh, do bear this in mind;

So don’t ever live a life just because you need to, but because you have to. Remember;

Therefore, do have faith in God, have faith in yourself. Most importantly, Never lose hope. And just like Bieber says; Never say never. LOL.

With love, B, si ibu kucing.