twenty-one.

November 5, 2010.

It was the day where all Hindus celebrated their festival of lights, or Deepavali. But what mattered the most (for me) is that it was also the day I turned older. I am now officially twenty one. Urgh. I wish I could be twenty forever.

My final examination began on October 30, proceeded on November 1 and 2. After that, there was only one paper left; which was on November 12. So basically, I got about 11-days gap before I sat for the last paper; Introduction to Pragmatics (which nearly drove me nut). So then I phoned my parents to fetch me home, considering that it might be stressful for me to just stay at IIUM (especially when my birthday was just around the corner). However instead of preparing for the final paper, I made a wiser decision to join my mom's work trip to Terengganu and Kelantan, without my dad (he couldn't make it due to some important programs).

The very first activity done as we arrived at Terengganu was performing Subuh prayer hehe. As I just finished praying, I got a kiss on cheek from my mom! -the birthday kiss. Then we continued our trip by visiting the Noor Arfa Craft Complex. After a few hours spent there, we straightly headed to Pasar Payang. It was 12 o'clock sharp, and seriously hot, and it was my freaking 21st birthday, and I was wandering aimlessly up and down the place. I cried a lil' bit as I just couldn't stand that situation. I was still silently crying when my eldest sister and her husband (who stay at Kuala Terengganu) arrived. They then picked us up and brought us to the motel. The moment we reached our room, I straightly looked for the bathroom and took shower for like half an hour and had a very pleasing nap, before I began listing my 21st birthday resolutions :)

At around 10pm, my eldest sister and her husband appeared, with a Secret Recipe cake box and KFC. yeay! and shake-a-doo, it's Chocolate Banana! oh, I just couldn't stop smiling :)

the number 5 represented the 3-in-1 celebration; my birthday (November 5), my mom's belated 50th birthday, and my sister and brother-in-law's minor anniversary (5 months). It was awesome!, except for the fact that another 2 family members; my father and elder sister weren't there to together share the joyness.

Before reaching midnight, we spent our time together at the karaoke lounge. Omg, I never knew that my brother-in-law is so good at singing! LOL. As it's almost midnight, we decided to call it a day. I studied Pragmatics a lil' bit before having a wonderful good night sleep :)

Well to be honest, for like half of the day, I thought that my birthday sucked this year. But then at the end of the day, I realized that it was actually a blessing in disguise.

THANKS A MILLION to all for the birthday wishes. Thanks for the precious people (sister, close friends) for texting me the birthday wishes as the clock striked twelve. Thanks for the beloved people who sang a birthday song for me on the phone. I was moved! Really. Thanks for my pregnant sister and her lovely husband for the cake, and amazing dinner. Thanks for those Facebook friends for spending some time to write me birthday wishes on my wall. Thanks to all. Thanks a LOT.

THANK YOU MOM, for giving birth to me.

and most importantly, THANK YOU ALLAH for still giving me a chance to repent, and fix my mistake, with every single breathe I take. Thank you Allah, for EVERYTHING :)

"We turn not older with years, but newer every day"

-Emily Dickinson-

Farizah's BIG day :)

somebody is getting older...
& somebody in a black t-shirt has gained some weights!


Happy 21st Birthday, Farizah dear!


be a Great one! :)

Dickinson's This World is not Conclusion.

This World is not Conclusion.

A Species stands beyond --

Invisible, as Music --

But positive, as Sound --

It beckons, and it baffles --

Philosophy -- don't know --

And through a Riddle, at the last --

Sagacity, must go --

To guess it, puzzles scholars --

To gain it, Men have borne

Contempt of Generations

And Crucifixion, shown --

Faith slips -- and laughs, and rallies --

Blushes, if any see --

Plucks at a twig of Evidence --

And asks a Vane, the way --

Much Gesture, from the Pulpit --

Strong Hallelujahs roll --

Narcotics cannot still the Tooth

That nibbles at the soul --

p/s: I'm lovin' this! for turning 13 into 17 :) Bravo!

a remedy.

"Truly, in remembering ALLAH

do hearts find rest."

(13:28)

my true one.

someday,

when I get my heart beating so fast,
my palm sweating,
and I can barely breathe,

I'll be sure that he is the true one :)




and when the day comes,

my heart won't be racing for anyone else!

"sometimes the heart knows things the mind can't explain"





p/s: my heart says that it'd be great to fall for somebody again. LMAO. not now.

American Literature Class Project 2010

Alhamdulillah, it's finally done. successfully :) because of this performance, I had had sleepless nights these days. I skipped some classes, and over-spent my pocket money :( but the play was tremendous! Fan-freakin'-tastic! others' were great too :)

BTW, our play was all about The Boston Tea Party of America.
Briefly, it was an incident on Dec 1773, in which American patriots dressed as Indians threw 342 chests of tea from 3 British ships into Boston Harbour.

The action was taken to prevent the payment of a British-imposed tax on tea and also to protest the British monopoly of the colonial tea by the Tea Act.

Our play was actually an adaptation of a famous kids TV series; Liberty Kids. Below are the stunning Casts! lmao.

*note: Samuel Adams was the leader for the action.

~*~*~

with Farizah. thanks for coming!
and thanks for not looking straight to the camera lens thus spoiling my picture :P

Hani & Faten, thanks a LOT for the BIG help!

the group mates.

another part of us.

meet the astonishing lecturer; Ms Yau Sim Mei a.k.a. Kak Mei :)


with Kak Zati the Red Indian (from another play) & Lynda the bestie :)


loving this :)

KUDOS to all!!

p/s: done with American Literature. Hello Pragmatics and Research Methodology!

bye bye to Petrosains :(

“Sesungguhnya kita milik Allah dan kepada-Nya kita kembali”

Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala berfirman:

وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِيْنَ. الَّذِيْنَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُوْنَ. أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُوْنَ

“Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar,

(yaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah mereka mengucapkan:

‘Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un.’

Mereka itulah yang mendapat keberkahan yang sempurna dan rahmat dari Rabb mereka, dan mereka itulah orang-orang yang mendapat petunjuk.”

(Al-Baqarah: 155-157)

p/s: Takziah buat Sakinah sekeluarga for the great loss. Moga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan hamba2-Nya yang beriman. Amiiin~

being the dream girl every guy desires.

Every woman dreams of being the great one. well I'm surely not excluded. I always dream of being as great as her;

and her;

or even her;

and her;

for some reasons, I wish I'm becoming a person who is as good as they are some day.

I could still remember the points I stated for a speech that I couldn't recall what its exact title was. well if I'm not mistaken it's about how to be a princess of your own. those 3 points were:

1) Be Impressive
(physically, mentally & spiritually)

2) Be Intelligent

3) Be Independent


well let's have some more;


4) Get a solid education.




5) Know how to make the most of your appearance.
(be confident)


6) Know your abilities and potential.
(and think of them whenever you doubt yourself)


7) Pray hard. and never forget to abide by the religious duties.




8) Decide you will make yourself into the kind of person you like.
(well in my case, a happy successful woman)


9) Be someone who has interests in life and in the world.


10) Aim to gain your power from your own strengths.


11) Care about other people.

"Wanita itu hiasan dunia dan seindah hiasan adalah wanita solehah"



well, GOOD LUCK!

to me too :)

[original source]

fave quote

taken from Lagenda Budak Setan. and the best friend loves this too :)

"Saya mencari cinta, bukan wanita"



awwww~ isn't this sweeeeeet?

precious moments with awesome people!

part I:

"oh yeah, tonight, we went to expressive corner and expressed all the thought and feelings in our heart. from the old good memories til today. took pics and everything. had fun sang a song on the way back to mahallah. the background singer overreacted. dont do this again. haha.. kiddin'.. but we had fun on our way back. i love both of you, bella and fery.:)"

-Lynda Yusof, October 8 2010, 1.30am-

Part II:







Part III:

"A crazy yet nice night of 9th Oct 2010 with my neighbor, Nabila Hanis :))"

-Lynda Yusof, October 9 2010-


to my dear Lynda & Farizah,
you've no idea how much I appreciate having you in my life.
a big big big heart for you :)

p/s: kalau ade Zahirah mesti lagi best! :D

dreams.

I've been dreaming of a few guys that I know these days.


and why is that?

To whom it may concern:

"I'm not concerned with your liking or disliking me.

All I ask is that you RESPECT me as a human being."

7th October 2010: I hope you know that you've done something disrespectful towards me. and that you no longer earn my respect. I never called someone a bitch before but you made me broke my own record.


*quote by Jackie Robinson

Oh, You're Hillarious! Except NOT.

http://www.actinglikeanimals.com/ has been my favorite website since last week. and below is one of my faves! LOL.

Give blood. Give Life.

dear beloved blog, long time no see. I apologize for not having much time to spend here. well that's definitely because I'm currently effing busy, despite of my only-God-knows laziness. I require forgiveness from you. okay, bye.

well referring to the title, I actually just finished preparing my speech text for my Public Speaking class on coming Thursday. and I'm happy to say that I just found out that it's the only class I anticipate every week. there will be Persuasive speech next week and I'm doing "Why Should We Become Blood Donors"

there's actually something funny about how I decided to do this topic. I spent my whole weekend watching True Blood so basically I was influenced by seeing bloods being wasted to such lustful and desperate yet handsome vampires.

so here's my speech:

Do you know if there is any other way to save people’s lives rather than donating your money? Yes there is.

Do you know how much blood does it take to save a life?

Do you know who actually needs blood?

I spent my last weekend watching True Blood so the first thing came up in my mind is vampire but in real life, approximately every minute of every day, someone in this world needs blood. In fact, according to a recent poll, 60 percent of Malaysians say that they, or a family member, have needed blood for surgery or medical treatment.

Why Should We Become Blood Donors?

And why should you listen to me? Because I’ve been a donor since 2 years ago thus I know how vital it is to some people. And I’ve heard of loads of irrational reasons people don’t give blood such as they’re afraid of needles or even afraid of getting AIDS so I’d like to point out some reasons on why we should donate blood which are much more logical than those reasons I mentioned earlier.

To begin the list, let’s first look at the number one reason that people give for why they do not think that they should become a blood donor: they think it will hurt. I admit that it does hurt but it’s actually bad, bad enough to justify a decision to not become a blood donor and lose a chance to save hundreds of lives. It only hurts a little and for God’s sake the pain will fade in a short time. So my first reason on why should we donate blood is that it saves lives. Hundreds of lives. And like I mentioned earlier, every minute of every day, someone in this world needs blood. To be specific, according to America’s Blood Centers, more than 200 units of blood are needed every week for like cancer treatment, surgeries, organ transplants, etc. You don’t have to be a doctor to save lives. give blood, give life.

Secondly, we should become blood donors because we may need it some day. In this sense, we are just giving back early what we, or our family member or friends may need later. Many blood donors, including me, realize what a wonderful gift they have given only after they or someone they love are in need of blood donation. So when you are hesitating to donate your blood, imagine yourself being in the shoes of those who need blood.

Next, we should become blood donors because it’s easy and safe. Most healthy people can donate blood- men up to five times a year and woman two times. The procedure is not that painful that an adult can not bear. Even if you feel a bit tired after donating, you will recover within an hour or two with some rest. And yea, you don’t have to worry about getting infections because blood banks use disposable needles and syringes.

Basically, these are three main reasons. Another reasons are like blood donating helps you to lose weight. It’s because every time you give blood, you burn up to 650 calories (the amount of energy it takes for your body to replace a pint of blood).

Not only that, if you are a blood donor, you’d find out whether you have healthy iron levels or not thru a small sample tested before every blood donation. Low iron levels can cause fatigue and dizziness.

You should also become a blood donor so that you can feel good about doing something altruistic. I can still remember my very first time donating blood. I was scared to death, well who’s on earth doesn’t feel scared for having a quite-thick needle in their arms. But since I kept telling myself that this is one of the contributions I can give to the society, the pain didn’t matter at all. Donating blood always make me feel good about myself because only good people donate blood right?

There are also minor reasons for why should we become blood donors such like we can get free cookies (they normally serve blood donors with free food and drinks to get rid of their tiredness), free stuffs like key chain and even certificates. There’s also some privileges provided for blood donors. For instance, for those who have donated blood for like 2 to 5 times may have a free medical check up.

In a conclusion, as we are living in such a symbiotic life, each one us is responsible to help others in need. So just donate blood. It’s safe, it’s simple and most importantly, it saves lives.

P/S: points are not originally by me.

the Vampires I love :)

I could never forget the moment I watched Twilight for the first time. It's simply because it changed my impressions that vampires are not necessarily ghastly and as creepy as Dracula. and just like millions of girls out there, I was once in love with Pattinson too. but Twilight is somehow a bit irritating to me cause there's Bella in it. Lol. not funny.

then when I watched The Vampire Diaries, the irresistible charm of the Salvatores had all-of-sudden erased Edward Cullen from my heart. and I believed this one is the Best one of those two.

I even watched Vampires Suck and I honestly felt nothing about it though I did laugh at it (sometimes) Well, it's a parody after all. None shall be mad for its making-fun-of-Twilight stupid things.

I miss Salvatores so badly but there's nothing I could do besides waiting for somebody to download the second season which is still aired on The CW. Since the waiting is killing me so I decided to watch something I presumed would be like The Vampire Diaries. So I bought True Blood; season one and two. Unfortunately this is wayyyy creepier than The Vampire Diaries. (I can't actually stand horror movies) but I have to admit that this is how vampires should be portrayed. and not to be forgotten, this is an adult show. Trust me, it's way 'sexier' than Gossip Girl. well I can still handle some should-be-censored actions in GG but when it comes to True Blood, I do fast forwarding, muting the sound, and even covering my eyes!

.:. though I actually fell for Chris Riggi who played Jacob White in Vampires Suck (or even Scott Humphreys in Gossip Girls 3), and I am fascinated by some people in True Blood like Tara Mae and Sookie, my all the time favorite Vampire series would be The Vampire Blood :)

Way to go, Salvatores! I adore you both.

my current crush: Chris Riggi.
(he does look like Taylor Lautner, doesn't he?)




not-so-adorable Bill Compton: the protagonist of True Blood.



off to the Lala Land with Chris Riggi and Paul Wesley!
so long, peeps :)