time is ticking...

6 days to go.

can already feel the depression.

sigh.

forbidden love.

(fully edited for some reasons)

who cares?

i just can't help to let him out of my mind.

:(

That was irritating enough, assholes.

written at 1.15pm, Oct 21, 2009.

Good day, people.

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The title is so unlike me. eceh. But who cares, btw. I was, am, and will be seriously annoyed by quite a number of IIUM students, particularly the females.

After Grammatical Analysis class ended at 10am this morning, I planned to go to any IT labs to search on Aristotle’s concept of ethics; as a preparation for Islamic Ethics class at 11am.

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Plus, I needed to do the re-registration of Mahallah as well as check the final examination slip out (thought that the time for my Presentation Skill & Critical Thinking exam is already out and available online).

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I reached at IRK lab about 10 minutes later and as usual there was no available PC to be used.

I just stepped out without any disappointment as I saw loads of people were waiting for their turns and most PC users were seriously focusing on their works; typing assignments, etc. Well, never mind then. They were exactly in the same boat as I was.

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Then I headed to ITD lab, hoping that there’d be any PCs for me. I wanted to use it so badly. As I walked into the lab, again, it wasn’t surprising that there were many students.

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“Fine, waiting for a while wouldn’t be a big deal”.

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So I patiently stood at the back of the lab, waiting for anyone to log off. From where I stood, I could see all PC monitors and this was the thing that irritated me SO BAD. Most of PC users were busy with their Facebook. (i guess i'd better put exclamation marks here)

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Alright let’s have a statistic to make it more interesting. Well I can say about 75% of them were focusing on their farmvilles; planting veggies, feeding cows, watering plants, bla bla and even consistently viewing others’ pictures; giggling on photos of friends’ fellas and leaving comments, yadda yadda yadda. Urgghhh!

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Well this may be a normal phenomenon as I’ve always heard the buddies babbling about it. But maybe since this is my very first experience that I was really really in need of using PC, I got pissed off so much.

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Come on guys, don’t you feel embarrassed for using public facility for your own personal yet unnecessary thingies, while there are people around you who are really in need of it for much more beneficial works? Well you might say it’s your RIGHT as you are the one who came earlier and logged in. I won’t deny that it somehow makes sense since everyone has paid for the ITD fees but for me this is more to a matter of consideration for people around you. Do not be selfish. Though everyone paid the fee, but those who really need to do works deserve it more than you do. Bear it in mind, please.

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In some universities, the access to some websites like Facebook, Friendster, Myspace and even Blogspot has been terminated. Well it may somehow be good, especially in the situation which I’ve just talked about. However as a user of Facebook who as well own a blog and actively joining a community portal, I admit that it would be worse than a natural disaster for not being able to access those websites. And I know most of you would feel the same way too.

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But please, know your limit. Or most importantly, be aware of your responsibility as human beings. The IT labs are meant to be used by all students and staffs; they don’t belong to any of us. We share them. So please be considerate.

I myself will not access my Facebook and blog, or even visit any unnecessary websites if there are people who seem to need it more than I do. I would be ashamed of myself for being selfish. As I said before, the right to use public facilities belongs to those who do need them more. Do not be that unjust, please.

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Even in Islam, Allah asks us to pay Zakat to people who need it more than we do, because as we are all living in the same earth, we should share every single thing with each other. You will never be troubled by sharing with others what they lack of.

Like a Russian proverb which says;

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“The sun will shine into your yard too”.

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Do be kind people by making things easier for others. You are all grown-ups, after all.

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“To give a pleasure to a single heart by a single kind act is better than a thousand of head-bowings in prayer” –Saadi, a Muslim poet-

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~Loves from me~

happy birthday to someone who has made a beautiful difference in my life.

a joyful birthday wish dedicated to the one whom i'd never able to live without.

Hjh. Salihah bt. Kamaluddin.
4th October 1960; Kuantan, Pahang.

always believe that i resemble mom more than dad.
i even inherited a mole below my right eye from mom.
(know it doesn't make sense but who cares. hehe)

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years ago...

*****

Dear mom,

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I will be a person with pretty heart,

And become a person who is selfless,

I’ll keep the love of my mother’s wishes,

I think of mother who used to share my dreams and brush my hair.

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Though I’ve made hurtful wrong choices,

You silently watched over me from behind,

But now I think more than an innocent child,

The meaning of mom’s silent prayers.

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What will i do, yet my heart is small,

Can I do better without holding mother’s hand.

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I’m afraid that it will still lack,

I’ll be a wise daughter of my mom,

I will be a proud daughter no matter where I go,

I’ll keep the love of my mother’s wishes.

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I’ll show endless love,

I’ll have a warm heart.

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I’m shy to express,
That I really love my mom.

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*credit to SNSD's*

*****

I love you to bits, Mak.
you are indeed, irreplaceable.
*hugssss*

Highlights for September.

Good day, people.

finally i have guts to continue writing here.
yosh, despite the fact that i did have loads to write on, i was tooooo busy and most importantly lazy to do so. urgh. got so many things to do before, during and after raye. but thank God, i'm now free from those freakish thingies. all assignments, mid-terms, presentations were done though most of them were not successfully accomplished. *SIGH*
final exam is just around the corner thus i'd like to use that reason not to write more. let these pictures speak on my behalf :D

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*** eid celebration ***

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i did have so much fun this time. albeit the baju raye weren't incompleted, and most homeworks were all unfinished or even untouched, we were still enjoying eid to the fullest. i didn't go to any friends'. hope it'd be reasonable enough to put blame on those homeworks and driving license. jeez. thanks a LOT to the good buddies for visiting me. love you, darls. muax~

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the journey to relatives'.

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the cousin's.

*mak lang is so damn glad to know u, fareesha*

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Puteh with her baju raya made by me.

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the result for staying up late.

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annual routine after eid prayer.

the mother with the eldest.

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don't capture me please. urghh pimples!

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the Bosses.

ayah's was bought by me ;)

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the siblings.

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messing around in the car.

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*** the eldest's engagement ***

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it was on the 6th Syawal, if i'm not mistaken. the in-law-to-be is from Terengganu. sgt meriah okayy. maybe because it was during raye that there were lots of people coming. thus, albeit having catering service, we almost die preparing and cleaning things up.

wondering when my turn will be. dusts. can you just show up and settle everything up, Mr Right?. haha. miang~

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the hantaran from both sides.

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the happy Ayah. discussing with his besan-to-be.

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her future mak mertua.

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Ayah with the future family member.

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the crowd.

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captured too. finally.

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I'll pray for your happiness, sister.

wish the sun to shine into my yard too :)