a sigh of disappointment.

Two weeks have passed.
Apparently there was nothing to be content with.
Up till now, I keep on wondering why.

Oh, life is so complex.

The pain is much more unbearable though.
Nothing is more painful than realizing that you are actually nobody to people who you thought and called ‘good friends’.

Aih, wish I was given options. Wish I could turn back time.
Shouldn't have wanted to be this way in the first place.

Being altruistic is much more tiring than I expected.

Oh what did I do that I deserve this. Never wished to ;(

Now I have to bear it for few more years. and keep pretending like I am living such a heavenly life.

Aihhhh~

it isn’t just any day.

-it’s my birthday!

and it’s the twentieth. (the number sucks, btw. Haha)

Since the final exam has just begun and since I’ve only done two papers out of six of them, the big day was just a little something.

I hardly woke up from bed that morning- didn’t get adequate sleep due to Grammatical Analysis exam a day before. Darn it I only felt like sleeping till dusk.

But a promise had been made. Something had been planned weeks ago.

I started the day with a bowl of instant noodle. Hellish, but since I haven’t fully recovered from fever, it was the best for the throat, at that time.

By 11 something, the bff was already arrived. It was raining, but we had so much fun on our way to Sunway.

After reaching there about an hour later, we were at our wit’s end. Unlike usual, we were clueless. Had no idea on what could be treasured there. The initial plan was to ice-skate, but hell, I didn’t feel like doing anything. I was completely worried about the final exam. The 4-paper-to-go is extremely ‘mind-bending’. Without any desires at all, we went to play bowling. And because it wasn’t done wholeheartedly, I scored nothing. Out of ten trials, I missed for eight times! Oh, what a gloomy afternoon it was.

As the stomach was greatly singing; asking for food, we had lunch after zohor prayer. Wandering there for about half an hour, to look for a nice place with nice meals, the typical yet have-gone-there-for-million-times Kenny Rogers was finally opted. *chuckle*

After the meals, we wandered again without any purpose or directions. We chatted, babbled and laughed. As I was getting the mood to talk, the good mood finally reached the soul.

Thus, around half an hour before 7pm we were putting on the ice-skating shoes. As I was expecting that it wouldn’t be hard, the feeling was initially good. But then after falling two times though only few steps were taken, I felt like dying of embarrassment. Darn it! Though I was really in pain, I kept giggling and laughing out loud. Oh, dorky me. After about one hour, we finished six rounds with four times falling in total. The bff said I was good enough and did well for a beginner. Never took it as a compliment, btw.

However, thought I’ve fallen over myself to do it again and have just discovered that public skating is as fun as public speaking. *giggle*

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By 11, I safely arrived at uia.
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–End-
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Really wanting to write more but hell, 4 exam papers are waiting. And the 5th day of November has passed, after all. *sigh*

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To the most beloved mother; the one who gave born to me, only God knows how much I love you. I won’t be as I am now without you. and Ayah too! he was the first one wished my birthday this year! ;)

To the BFFs, good buddies and acquaintances, thanks a LOT for the wishes. *moved* can’t ever imagine my life without you all.

To Hanafi, the bff whom I spent the whole day with, I owe you a lot. Thanks darl, for every single thing you’ve done to me. You superbly made my big day. I had so much fun, seriously. Love you like hell and strongly hope for us to remain like this for ever. The friendship with you is my most treasured possession! Xoxo.

To myself, do behave the age. No more cries, no more silly thingies, please.

‘Oh diri, tolonglah jadi seorang yang HEBAT!’

My 20 revolutions;

(where's yours, Atiqah? haha)

1) Be stupendous,

2) Be wild at heart,

3) Be inspiring,

4) Be ambidextrous,

5) Be humble,

6) Be a bookworm,

7) Be valiant,

8) Be courageous,

9) Be gracious in defeat,

10) Be truthful,

11) Be delighted,

12) Be generous,

13) Be thoughtful,

14) Be momentous,

15) Be voracious,

16) Be practical,

17) Be smart,

18) Be a leader,

19) Be intentive,

20) Be my BEST!

Also, be a devoted servant of God, a loyal daughter, a nice, helpful buddy, and a good wife and mother in the future ;)

Pray the best for me people.

The sun will shine in your yards too ;)

Love, love, and love from me.

the most hateful weeks to go through.

good day, people.
frankly speaking, i do dislike examinations. really. if i have zillion of words to express it, i would have listed each of them.

fine then, call me ridiculous. well, that's me. i hate doing revisions. i prefer learning in class, finishing assignments and showing off during presentations. haha. the besties would surely call me hypocrite for saying this. haha. because i did occassionaly fall asleep in some classes especially ones that i disliked. shall i be more specific? okay, they were Dr Serdar's and Dr Affandi's.

however, no matter how much i hate exams, nothing will change. i won't be graduating if i don't pass all courses, after all.
i surely don't wanna waste my age here though i do love uia that much. *chuckle*

i've just recovered from high fever, btw. 3-day sufferings were enough to kill me. *cough* (but i do prefer suffering from fever than having to cram for good grades like crazy)

already done with Presentation Skills & Critical Thinking exam last saturday. sigh, still can't expect for an A though owning the highest carry mark among classmates.

bla bla bla... *when will you stop babbling, and start revising, little rascal?*

fine. enough for now. it's past 12am and i only have covered a quarter of Grammatical Analysis syllabuses and the exam will take place in about 14 hours from now.

will be celebrating my BIG event on the next day with the bff. have been waiting for it since weeks ago. really looking forward to it, darl! :)

warm hugs for all :)

toodles~

time is ticking...

6 days to go.

can already feel the depression.

sigh.

forbidden love.

(fully edited for some reasons)

who cares?

i just can't help to let him out of my mind.

:(