what does this word mean, ppl? ; B-U-S-Y.

owh sangat kesibukan.
deadlines are coming.
yeah, im dead already. 0_0

>Science of Qur'an term paper (pronounce it correctly yea): monday,
>Drama take-home test: tuesday,
>Phonetics & Phonology article review: thursday,
>BM group paper work: friday,
>BM individual presentation: friday.

=3

bear the pain!

it was last night.

i hardly went to sleep.

it was hard. yeah, it was THAT hard.

it was painful. too painful that i couldn't bear.

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i woke up a bit late.

*grin*

thanks, Allah. you finally show me the path.

You finally answer my pray.

my destiny. yeah, my destiny.

destiny. destiny. destiny.

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bear the pain, Bella. u'r much much much STRONGer than u thought.

let bygone be bygone. u've wasted so much time.

u hv a much more bright future.

that 20th birthday wish? -no big deal!-

spell this out loud- S-M-I-L-E.

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be proud of yourself.
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Bear the pain, it's NOTHING though.

xoxo~

owh sgt depressed~

time: 12.30 pm.
event: Drama oral presentation.
instructor: Mdm Rohani.
mood: melancholy!

i presented on Themes for a classical Greek play, Oedipus Rex, today.
i didn't even get to finish my first sentence when Mdm said:

"You speak too FAST and too SMOOTH. is this the way you present?"
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startled.
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i mumbled: "fine. im gonna fix my style of speaking"
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but then when i spoke SLOWly and a bit ROUGHly,
i started to STUTTER. dammit.
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conclusion : i somewhat do not really like my voice. oh Allah, do forgive me.

Declaring major~

i've just submitted the major declaration form today.

Bachelor of Human Sciences (English Linguistics and Literature).

i dont think i'll be affordable to specialize in one course only; neither Linguistics nor Literature. so i chose the combination of those two.

and yea, InsyaAllah i'll do minor in Islamic Revealed Knowledge.

do pray for me, ppl =3

p/s: mak and ayah are coming to visit me tomorrow. *grin*
ahhhhhhhh~ sangat rindu!!!

Backbiting.

*this is one of my essays that i wrote last year. i used to write on islamic matters once a week, but dont have much time nowadays.
*sorry for any mistakes, & grammatical errors. do tell me for anything wrong. tq.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Dear my brothers and sisters in Islam, may this reach you in the best condition of health. I’m writing for the sake of my responsibility on concerning others’, to remind them whenever they commit sins and mistakes. I know we are only human beings. We are flawless but that does not mean that we can do anything we like, anything we want. We have religion, our way of life. We have Allah, our God who is always watching us, wherever we are, whatever we do, and at anytime. Thus we are created to help each other, to remind each other, so that everybody will get the best in the world and also in the hereafter. I guess I had given such a long introduction.

My aim for writing this is actually to admonish about the habit of backbiting people. This is a common sin made by women. (If you never commit this kind of sinful action, please continue reading so that you may admonish other people regarding this and may Allah reward you for the good deed!) Sometimes, we may have the intention to say something bad about people around us, especially our own friends. In other words, we might have the ‘intention’ to only tell other people the fact about the person we are ‘talking’ about. Thus we might think that we are not committing sin though. But let’s look at the technical meaning of this action in Islam. It does make sense as ‘to say anything to another about your friend or anyone in his absence which he/she doesn’t like’. Got the point right? Even though what we are telling is true, we are still backbiting. While if it is not true, we are instead slandering (fitnah)- which is much worse than killing. Since we are human, we don’t have right to judge people. It’s Allah’s job. We can’t bother. We ourselves do make mistakes, thus do not talk on others’.

However if we are intending to seek assistance in changing one’s evil deed, it is fine then. We are even will be rewarded for our good deed. It is also allowable if we are aiming to warn other Muslims on the evil. In other words, we tell one’s story to another so that they can learn something from it. But however we can’t mention the name of the person we are talking about or pointing directly to her/ him so that it will not humiliate her/him. Other than that, backbiting is also allowed in order to disclose a person’s evil which are done openly. Means, if we are telling someone about one’s evil action which is done openly in public, then it’s fine. But again, it must be depended on our intention as well. It is okay since the person we are talking about is committing the sin openly without intending to hide the action. Like I’ve mentioned before, backbiting is saying something about someone which he doesn’t like. In this case, since he is doing it openly, in other hands he does not feel shy of what he is committing thus he does not even care if everyone is keep on talking about his sinful action.

I guess it is enough to explain the concept of backbiting which is always being misunderstood by many people. Here I would also like to mention the translation for a Quranic ayah to support my points. It is Surah Al-Hujurat, ayah 12;

“….do not speak ill of each other behind their backs. Would any one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother?...”

We get the point that Allah had strictly prohibited His people from backbiting or we will be punished in the hereafter. and the punishment for backbiting is that we will eat the flesh of our dead brother (the one we backbite). So do fear of Allah’s punishment which we do not have any idea about how painful it is.

Besides, our Prophet s.a.w. also had once said after he got back from his tour to the ‘Isra’ Mi’raj’ that he saw lots of women in the hellfire compare to men. Because of what? Then Prophet added that it is because of their mouths. (women commonly commit lots of sins through his sayings such like backbiting).

So do fear of Allah. Do fear of the hellfire. We will never know when is our death thus do repent before it is too late to do so. Allah is Al-Rahman and Al-Rahim. He will forgive His people’s sins if the prayers are done sincerely. I’m sorry if this causes your angry towards me or you feel annoyed though. I’m just doing and playing my role to take care of my sisters in Islam since I will be asked in the hereafter for not doing my responsibility. Plus, this is a reminder for me too. I do not have any other intention but for the sake of continuous rewards by Allah. Do think over it yea. (you will even be rewarded for your intention to think over it).

May Allah bless you and your family. Wassalam.

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"mencintai tak semestinya memiliki"

sounds gross~
but painful indeed. :'(

p/s; im still an ordinary girl after all.

2009 Budget!

as obviously shown, this is my personal budget till the end of short semester (june). i've been doing budget since i was at secondary school. though im not good at counting (maths), when it comes to money affair, im much better than Adi Putra! haha. and yea, i guess everyone should have one too!

~coz money is to be spent WISEly and in a SENSible way..

*fact about me:

i love managing my own money and others' too! =3

(i did contribute a lot in making Sakinah's budget. thus adding another service to her and making me her: -personal manager, schedule organizer, as well as finance consultanct. special package!)

xoxo.

How many litres today?

i guess it is unnecessary to talk on the use of water. even a 6-year-old knows that clearly. so here i am interested to share something about drinking plain water. let's come out with common catchy question then:

" how important plain water is? "

FYI, we need at least 1 litre for each 25 kg of our weight.

if your weight is 50kg, then you must drink at least 2 litres everyday.

most people drink less than 1 litre day.
but do you know that 1.7 litre water in our body will be excreted everyday through Urination and Respiration?

So imagine if we keep on consuming only 1 litre per day!

Why is it so important to human body?

definitely because it comprises about three quarters (1/3) of the human mass and is a major component in every cell:

Brain consists of 90% water,

Muscles consist of 75%,

Bones- 22%,

Blood- 83%.

next, what will happen due to the deficiency of water?

exhaustion,

frequent headache,

sembelit,

ketegangan otot,

(ive no idea what these two called in English.)

unstable blood pressure,

lung problem,

dry skin,

and even fatal problems*!

*Unlike vitamin deficiencies which can take weeks to make someone ill,

a water deficiency can kill in days or even hours.

one more interesting fact:

Water is important to fitness and fat loss!

it is due to several reasons including the following:

Water fills us up without adding any calories,

Dehydration will degrade a person’s ability to exercise and burn calories,

Dehydration will reduce protein synthesis which is needed to build or repair muscles.

that's why when people ask about how did i lose weight, i would only say:

"minum air kosong banyak-banyak!"

so people, do start consuming more water!

"ala, berat la.", "ala, leceh laa.."

do not be so L-A-Z-Y to bring a bottle of water to anywhere (but then end up drinking other's). your health is one of the greatest gift by God. do appreciate that! disregard those LAME excuses!

tengok kat sekolah, anak sape yang selalu jinjing (not bad jgak ye BM saye!) botol air?

and anak sape yang selalu bijak?

me: i consume at least 3.5 litres per day.

and undeniably i frequently go to toilet.

some good buddies said: "toilet is Bella's second home" =P

but i dont care at all cause i love MYSELF the most!

thank God that i've gotten used to it.

plus, i've gotten to know where almost all toilets kat UIA are! (toilet-direction informer. haha)

How to start?

recommended method by me:

one dot for each bottle. at the end of the day, count all of them. like shown above, there are 4 dots at the 600ml-water bottle column. so it means that i had consumed 2.4 litre.
and yea, bear this in mind too:

"make sure that today is better than yesterday,

and tomorrow is better than today"

Good Luck! xoxo.

Drama acting assignment.

Acting assignment is one of the assessments in Literary Genres II: Drama. it will take place in March 13, 2009. So it's about 2 to 3 weeks more left!

everyone in the class is united into only one group. there is another section which devide the people into 3 sub-groups (due to the big amount of ppl).

we've had our first meeting today. so alhamdulillah, everything has been set up, from the characters till the venue for weekly rehearsal.

we'll be performing a greek comedy play called Lysistrata, by Aristophanes; one of the greatests dramatist during that time. (above is the most sopan and senonoh picture i've ever found. the rests aren't suitable to be displayed here).basically, since it's a comedy play so it must be funny la kan. but by the time you read it, you would either vomit or feel disgusting from the page one till the end. you might bear in mind that this play is only about sex. however when you are about to grasp the inner messages, you'll find out that it has nothing to do with sex. it's so interesting though. other than that, you might be wondering how did the play be performed when almost scenes include the sexual things. but the fact is that during that time, no women is allowed to be involved in theatre performance. so the whole play was performed by men which i consider as OK lah~ and layannn lah~.

there are several characters to be played. i'll be playing on one of the Old Women Chorus, besides Sakinah, Nadea, Ain and Dalila. since we'll be performing together so hopefully it won't be that hard and will run smoothly. and guess what, i'll also be playing another solo role that is Old Market Woman. hopefully it will suit me well. huhu. this will be my very first experience doing stage performance and i'll go out as an old woman. what do you think, ppl? *rolling eyes* fine. like ain said: "ala biase la mula dari bawah". yea, u'r right. even a thousand starts with a cent. huhu. sgt envy Dina! haha. she'll be playing the main character, Lysistrata. salute! do well, Dina. we all have a very high expectation towards you. we know you were born talented. geee.

im now anticipating the play to be staged successfully. *pray*

oh yea, again, it will take place in March 13, 8 pm, at Main Auditorium, and everyone is welcomed!

do come, IIUM students! and enjoy it =3

xoxo~

the other side of me.

me: full-time undergraduate student, part-time facilitator aka naqibah.

i finally received the offer letter. oh yea, im now working for the Co-Curicular Activity Centre (CCAC), International Islamic University Malaysia (intentionally type it long hehe) as the facilitator for Study Circle II a.k.a Halaqah. there are around 15 people under me and most of them are at least one year older than me- the oldest is 23. and yea, it's bit challenging. it's not that easy to lead the olders right? but alhamdulillah, i've gotten used to it. it's no longer a big matter to me. i treat everyone like my own best buddies, no matter how old they are. like ustaz Ismail (the backbone of tarbiyyah and training unit) said; "nak tarbiyah orang ni memang banyak cabarannya. but don't worry, coz since u're working for Allah, He will always be there for you to help". *grin* and yea, i do feel comfortable now and started to enjoy the job! -even planned to stick with it till i finish my BHSc degree. O God, do bless me. Ameenn~


oh yea, the mass lecture finally took place today- after being postponed last time.
new thing discovered: kak Samihah (the chief faci) is a very soft-spoken person. she speaks so smoothly. kalah i! hehe. but she's nice though. she treats me very well. she's a postgraduate student, master in islamic education. caya lah! salute~ :-)

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did u discover something?
i posted a lot today. its been a long time since i last got free time to keep still in front of the laptop. plus, i do like writing. during school examination, i was always the last one who submitted the essay paper and also the one who always asked for more papers. it's just when i've started writing, it's toooooo hard for me to put a fullstop, though my handwriting is as terrible as cakar kucing. people always say it is similar to doctors'. nod2. yeah, former doctor-to-be who got 5C for biology in SPM la. sigh. whatever it is, nothing can change it. dah macam habit. i do love writing. but it doesnt mean that i write very well (got B for Intensive Expository Writing subject last sem. sob2). so is my mouth la, when i;ve started to talk, it's soooo hard for me to shut my mouth up. my dad said: "eeeiiii, caaaaaaaaaaaaakap je kejanye". and my reply would be "nak buat camne yah, anak cikgu samat jugak". *giggle* i was a debater though.

fine. gotta stop now.

fail to plan, plan to fail~

well it signifies that if you are fail to plan, then you are actually planning to fail.

this is one of the mottos i've been strictly held since long time ago.
in short, im such a very well-organized person. everything must be arranged neatly. yea, everything. even my hair band can't be placed somewhere else than its already-set place. according to my personal rules and regulations, it's unlawful.

time is very very very valuable. malays say; "time is gold", some people say' "time is money", an arabic phrase says; "time is sword".

i say; "time is one of the greatest gifts from God".

so people, do not let it be wasted just like that.

my personal daily schedule

i plan my day. and i'll feel very very down for not being able to make it as planned. oh yea, i even have a schedule, managed for me and Sakinah- the 'crazymate', the classmate, the assignment partner, and the bestie whom my problems be told to. me? -cik sakinah's personal organizer. haha. i speak the truth. im the one who always sets everything up. right, unnie? lol.

ours

to Sakinah unnie;

let's work together for the Dean's list.

do remember this all the time- "do your very best, you'll be turning 20 soon"

thanks for always be understanding and believe in me.

we'll reach our peak together yea!

-xoxo-

the 'heat' that has just started...

basically, this is the 'rising action' for a student like me. yea like me- one of the viable products of the Garden of Knowledge and Virtue.

so many things to be done IMMEDIATEly. so many things to bedone PERFECTly. so many things to be done COMPLETEly. just got time to spell B-U-S-Y.

but, Bella is excitingly enjoying her life~ =3

cause this is the 'rising action' that will lead her to the 'happily ever after' denouement!,

and reaches her peak!

-keep the spirit up! xoxo-

mid term exam.

Mass Communication: Feb 5,
Science of Qur'an: Feb 11,
Phonetics and Phonology: Feb 17,

the rest's hasn't been informed yet.

happy study everyone!
u know i love u, xoxo.

the so-called-awesome feeling that has been drastically changed

since few days till several minutes ago, i was in 'love' with somebody. my close buddies do know it. i did sort of admit that i had feeling towards this guy. however, it is already gone. it may sound funny, or even crazy. but this what we call the result after several examination. wahaha.

frankly, i did like this guy. im looking forward to meet and spend some time with him. in brief, i really liked this guy and even the 'feeling' had became serious till i had the thought that he was destined for me. eeuuww~

well it began like this. since i was seriously falling for him, i made a 'tour' on his friendster profile. so in short, i guessed i've gotten to understand his character quite well. credit to friendster!. from what i understood, he's someone who easily befriends with any girls. or rudely, he's desperate. i guessed la kan. he only loves making friends. yea, only friends. but he treats all girls in a way like what lovers usually do. dammit!

so it was like i was tricked la kan. hmmph, thank God, it was only for a while.
anyway, i didnt come up with this opinion sesuka hati je. like ive said, i did some examinations, investigations, bla bla. (i was indirecly applying what i've learnt in Basic Research course la kan. haha)
i did ask some friends, who know him quite well. and their feedbacks were all the same as mine.

aishhh. i dont know how to name my feeling right now. im not sad neither happy. but i did take kind of relieved breath and found out that im no longer have that kind of feeling towards him. im no longer think about him or even feel crazy about him and thats obviously good la kan? wahhh..

the planned thing? i'll just make it on. but only as an old friend.

gotta stop talking on this freaking, pissing-me-off stuff,
and gotta continue my revision on Mass Communication- mid term test for this course is next week.

so in conclusion,
im now totally free from that ridiculous feeling. love is painful indeed.

*grin*

unexpected visitor from Nilai.

the former roomate, Nik Asma'.

(while celebrated her 19th birthday which was on a week ago, 24th Jan.)

happy belated birthday. sorry for not remembering it on time.