Sunday, February 1, 2009

the so-called-awesome feeling that has been drastically changed

since few days till several minutes ago, i was in 'love' with somebody. my close buddies do know it. i did sort of admit that i had feeling towards this guy. however, it is already gone. it may sound funny, or even crazy. but this what we call the result after several examination. wahaha.

frankly, i did like this guy. im looking forward to meet and spend some time with him. in brief, i really liked this guy and even the 'feeling' had became serious till i had the thought that he was destined for me. eeuuww~

well it began like this. since i was seriously falling for him, i made a 'tour' on his friendster profile. so in short, i guessed i've gotten to understand his character quite well. credit to friendster!. from what i understood, he's someone who easily befriends with any girls. or rudely, he's desperate. i guessed la kan. he only loves making friends. yea, only friends. but he treats all girls in a way like what lovers usually do. dammit!

so it was like i was tricked la kan. hmmph, thank God, it was only for a while.
anyway, i didnt come up with this opinion sesuka hati je. like ive said, i did some examinations, investigations, bla bla. (i was indirecly applying what i've learnt in Basic Research course la kan. haha)
i did ask some friends, who know him quite well. and their feedbacks were all the same as mine.

aishhh. i dont know how to name my feeling right now. im not sad neither happy. but i did take kind of relieved breath and found out that im no longer have that kind of feeling towards him. im no longer think about him or even feel crazy about him and thats obviously good la kan? wahhh..

the planned thing? i'll just make it on. but only as an old friend.

gotta stop talking on this freaking, pissing-me-off stuff,
and gotta continue my revision on Mass Communication- mid term test for this course is next week.

so in conclusion,
im now totally free from that ridiculous feeling. love is painful indeed.

*grin*

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